The protagonist of this story is
Dorian, Earl of Red Gloria, a
beautiful and dashing aristocrat,
aesthete and international art
thief who operates under the code name
'Eroica'. Outrageously, openly gay, he is madly in love with Major Klaus von
dem Eberbach, a foul-tempered foul-mouthed painfully straight (in all senses of
the word) intelligence agent with NATO. Into their story (and series: From
Eroica with Love by Aoike Yasuko) comes the mysterious Sergei (from *his*
series, Papuwa Boy of the South by Shibata Ami.)
A Garden in Paris
1.
An invitation to dinner at the Savoy Hotel with the man of one's
dreams should be enough to make anyone happy, but not when one's beloved
behaves as perversely as Klaus was behaving now. Bad enough that he looked as
if Dorian had some pestilential disease that might be contagious, which from
Klaus' point of view he did: and if only, thought Dorian, gazing dreamily into
the sea-green eyes, Klaus would contract it. But worse, much worse, was being
made to look at other men's pictures: and such unattractive men at that.
"You know the
General, of course," Klaus said as if he doubted it, laying down a photo
of a blond sharp-featured man in his late forties.
"I don't believe
we've actually met," Dorian murmured, barely
giving it a glance.
"No of course you
haven't met," said Klaus testily. "As far as we
know, he's never left his native
Circassia: assuming of course, that it *is* his native Circassia. We can't be
sure of anything about his origins."
"Oh, in that case,
no, I don't know him. I've never been to
Circassia."
Klaus gave him a small
smile. "Why don't you go?" he suggested mildly.
Dorian looked confused.
"But isn't there a war on or something? Or am I thinking of somewhere
else? All those little countries get a touch muddled in my head..."
"It's not just
Slavic countries that get muddled, Lord Gloria, not in *your* head. And yes,
for your information, there is indeed a war on in Circassia and has been for
three years. A very bloody, bitter, sectarian religious war. There are two or
three major armies involved and as many more small ones, and between them
they've succeeded in tearing the country apart. All efforts to stabilize the
situation, or even to negotiate a cease fire, have met with failure."
Klaus sounded rather like a BBC newscaster. Since the BBC news was Dorian's
favourite cure for insomnia, he found himself giving a reflex yawn.
"Religious wars are
always so destructive," he sighed. "And so pointless. Rather like
religion, some people would say."
"No doubt they would,"
Klaus replied with distaste. "But not the kind of person I prefer to
associate with. In any case, the religious problem is minor compared to the
tribal and territorial issues involved. Back of this war there are centuries of
bad feeling, and because of it Circassia has been, until just recently, on the
verge of disintegrating into a number of armed camps and nothing more."
He tapped the photograph.
"But last year, one of the smaller armies began to have a series of
stunning successes. The General is a mercenary with no known religious ties.
Apparently he comes from one of the hill tribes. They've always fought among
themselves but generally held aloof from conflict down in the plains. Using his
own army of mercenaries, bolstered by defectors from other factions, he's taken
three of the major towns and held them against all odds. He's now in the
process of fighting for the capital. If he can take that, some kind of
stability may return to the country."
This was all vaguely
familiar. Dorian supposed he'd seen the face on the cover of magazines like The
Economist and Time. The thatch of sun-bleached blonde hair, the amazingly
bright blue eyes, the sharp features surrounded by a network of tiny, almost
invisible lines... It was a good photograph. And it made him feel a little
cold. The eyes were not quite sane, the mouth betrayed an ambition to be filled
at all costs, and the whole face conveyed a virility that Dorian found oddly-
very oddly- repulsive. Maybe if I were a woman, he thought abstractedly...
"I'm glad I don't
know him," he said without thinking.
Klaus gave him a peculiar
glance. "He's a dangerous and unprincipled man, with neither religion nor
morals. But he's the only hope for the country. NATO wants to keep him alive.
And unfortunately, someone else wants him dead."
"All the other
armies, surely?"
"Naturally,"
said Klaus dismissively. "But this assassination plot appears to have
originated outside the country, and to be connected to someone actually in the
general's camp. Unfortunately our informant was killed in the shelling of
Vbronsk. The details he managed to pass on to us are extremely scanty. The
centre of the plot seems to be in Paris. That being the case we're fairly safe
in assuming that the instigation comes from this man."
A second photograph was
laid beside the first. It showed a large man with a black moustache, in formal
dress, chatting animatedly with a woman in a ball gown and tiara. The face
displayed an almost exaggerated wellbeing and bonhomie, but the pale pursy
little eyes told another story.
"Taken at the Paris
Opera last year. The exiled President is a great supporter of the arts."
"Oh," said
Dorian. "Now this one I *do* know. He has- I mean, he had- quite a nice
Matisse..."
"Please," said
Klaus with distaste, "Spare me the details of your burglarious career. I
dislike thieves almost as much as I dislike perverts, and you happen to be
both."
"I don't think
you've met enough thieves *or* perverts to form a reasonable judgment, Major.
If you expanded your circle a little, you might change your mind."
"One is enough,
thank you. Kindly pay attention to what I'm saying. It's important that you
understand the background to this mission but I'd like to conclude this
interview as quickly as possible."
"Oh very well. But
politics make me thirsty; I hope you don't
mind if I send for reinforcements?
Dorian raised a finger
and a young Beardsley faun of a waiter
appeared at his side, ready with
adoring eyes to take his order.
"More wine,
Major?" Klaus made a stiff sign of refusal. "Ah well, in that case, a
half bottle of the Macon '75 please, dear."
He smiled winsomely at the young man
who trotted off on his errand with the expression of one who has been
vouchsafed a glimpse of the beatific vision.
"If I may
continue..." Klaus said repressively. "The civil war began after a
coup d'état which sent the President- and the fortune he amassed during his
term of office- off to a pleasant exile in Paris. In spite of the fact that
there's virtually nothing left of his native country worth going back to, he
seems desirous of returning. He's been trying to get his supporters in the
capital to arrange an amnesty. The General has said he'll personally castrate
him if he sets foot on Circassian soil. He probably means it."
"Fascinating,"
Dorian murmured, watching the Macon slide into his wine glass. "You're
sure you won't have some, Major? Dear, bring another wineglass. I'm sure he'll
change his mind in time."
Klaus ignored the
interruption. "Now we come to the area where you're involved. Are you
acquainted with the de Marquère family?"
Dorian was surprised.
"Why yes, of course. I've been to the
Baroness' salon several times. A
charming woman, even if she does collect only modern art of the
obstinately ugly school. Braques and Bacon and such. Her husband at least buys
eighteenth century prints: too pale for me, though the composition can be
charming enough..."
"Never mind their
artistic tastes. Our agent said that de Marquère was definitely involved in the
plot. We've been unable to turn up any connection between the de Marquères and
the President beyond the most superficial social contacts, which argues that
the conspirators are being very cautious. But we've discovered a Circassian
connection in the Baron's personal circle, who must be the link between him and
the conspiracy. It's possible that you know him as well."
Klaus laid the third
photograph in front of Dorian. It was an interior shot and the lighting was not
of the best. Madame la Baronne, small and vivacious, was standing next to the
short dapper Baron, her head turned to smile up at a tall pale man on her other
side. Beside the dark bird-like de Marquères, so vivid and alive even in a
photograph, the other's features seemed to lack both definition and expression.
His colouring looked washed out, almost albino, but that might have been the
fault of the photographer who had taken a spur of the moment picture with too
bright a flash.
"I don't think I do,
but then he doesn't seem the sort of person one would remember offhand. It's
hard to tell, with all this dirt on the negative." Dorian's finger
indicated the dark blob which obscured part of the unknown man's face."
"That's an eyepatch.
He lost an eye in the war. It makes him
easy to identify."
"And when he doesn't
have it on, does it make it hard?" Dorian was simply being facetious, but
Klaus stared at him as if he'd been struck in the face. Dorian grew alarmed.
"Major, dear, whatever is the matter? Did I say something I shouldn't
have?"
Klaus blinked and
swallowed hard. "No, no, not at all. I forget occasionally that you are
not always and necessarily a fool, Lord Gloria."
"Darling, you say
the sweetest things," Dorian burbled, covering Klaus' chagrin with
frivolity.
It worked. "Don't
call me darling," Klaus snapped with reflex irritation. "This friend
of the de Marquère's is called M.Serge. He seems to function without a last
name, unless of course that *is* his last name. He runs an antiquarian book and
print store somewhere back of the Boulevard St. Germain, with a number of
distinguished clients, the Baron among them. He's probably the source of those
prints you find so unsatisfactory. Claims to have studied in Berlin, has a
degree in fine arts from the Sorbonne. Travels regularly to Holland, Austria
and Germany, less often to Britain and Italy: always on business, attending
auctions. I'm surprised you don't know him."
"Prints,"
Dorian murmured deprecatingly. "So dull, so--
colourless. Give me a good oil painting
anytime."
"Or else, of course,
you'll take it. Acquaintances say M.Serge is polite and pleasant but not
forthcoming. Solitary, lives by himself, associates with his clients and other
dealers but appears to have no close friends. He travels on a French passport
which gives his irthplace as Circassia. With the present state of that country,
naturally, it's impossible to verify any other facts about him. Including, as
you've just pointed out, whether he really has one eye or two. He lives on the
second and third floors above his bookstore. We want you to break into his
house."
"Oh," said
Dorian, only half pretending surprise. "But... I
mean, what do you want found?"
"Anything that would
tie him to the President or a plot to kill the General. Anything at all
suspicious. Large, unaccounted-for sums of money, lists of names,
correspondence not related to business. Anything, in fact, that might shed
light on the man and his movements."
"But Major- this is
all so vague. If I know exactly what I'm
looking for, of course I can find it
without difficulty. But I'm a
thief, not an agent. How do I know what's
suspicious and what isn't? You know I love to be of use to you, Klaus, but
really, wouldn't one of your own men be better?"
"I've said all this
to the Chief already. He simply won't listen to reason. Tracing the source of
this plot is absolutely important and- though God alone knows why- he's
convinced only you have the background to uncover the truth about M.Serge. I
don't think you've got the knowledge or the common sense to find what we're
looking for, but I've received my orders." Klaus looked at him with an
intensification of the old dislike.
For once, Dorian was
almost inclined to agree with the Major's
assessment. This wasn't his kind of
thing at all. He hoped the stakes weren't too high. Klaus' next statement
immediately disillusioned him.
"NATO of course
informed the General that there was a plot against his life which might involve
some of the men around him, in the hopes that he'd take extra precautions. The
General, unfortunately, is a true hillsmen. His distrust of outsiders is
pathological. He refused to believe a word, demanded the proof we don't have,
accused us of trying to cause disruption in his faction and had our agent slung
out of his camp. If this plot is to be stopped and the country saved from ruin,
we- or rather, you- are going to have to do it alone." Klaus' bleak
expression left no doubt about how he estimated Dorian's chance of success.
"Here are your
tickets to Paris and your hotel reservation. You leave tomorrow morning. I have
to return to Bonn this evening; in fact-" glancing at his watch- "I
must leave for the airport at once."
"But darling- I ran
out and got us tickets for the opera as
soon as I heard you were coming.
Pavarotti is singing Calaf--"
"I don't care for
opera," Klaus said shortly. "Contact me at
this number tomorrow night when you've
completed your mission."
He laid all the papers on
the table. Dorian opened his mouth to protest, his instinctive dislike of the
proposal intensified by Klaus' treating him like some underling who could be
ordered about from here to breakfast. Realization dawned just in time. Of
course Klaus would always obey orders conscientiously and never knowingly
sabotage a mission; but unconsciously he was doing his best to make Dorian
refuse. How tiresome. There was no chance this time of wringing concessions
from the man he loved as the price of his co-operation. Klaus would only resist
adamantly, and report to his superiors that Eroica had refused to give his
services.
Klaus thought he would
fail. Well, that made it all the more imperative that he succeed. Not merely to
be of use to his beloved
but to have that beloved seriously in
his debt. Dorian's self-confidence bounced back from its momentary doubts like
a squash ball off the court wall.
"Of course, darling.
Anything you say. And you *will* drink a
toast to my success, won't you?"
He poured the last of the Macon into the other wineglass and handed it to von
dem Eberbach.
Klaus smiled grimly and
raised his glass. "To your success, Lord Gloria," he said, and drank
it down quickly. Dorian felt giddy with wine and exhilaration.
"How about a kiss
for luck?" he suggested.
"Absolutely not!"
the Major roared, and seizing his briefcase
he strode out of the dining room.
"Au'voir, mon
amour!" Dorian called to his fleeing back, and
sat smiling to himself for quite
fifteen minutes afterwards.
2.
Sitting next day in a
somewhat different restaurant, Eroica was feeling much less buoyant. It might
be spring elsewhere but in Paris the sky was grey and, even in a Fair Isle
jumper, Dorian was distinctly chilly. The dark asphalt streets, still wet with
the rain that was falling when he'd disembarked at Charles de Gaulle airport
this morning, breathed off a cold dispiriting dankness. He'd dropped by the
print store, a narrow three-storey building in the rue Galande, to see what he
could discover in daylight, only to find that M.Serge subscribed to the lunatic
French custom of closing on Wednesday afternoons. It was all very well for
sweet shops and iron mongers in small English villages to be closed on Wednesdays,
Dorian thought in cosmopolitan disgust, but one
expected something more of the City of
Lights.
So now he was sitting in
the Café de l'Odeon at the corner of the Rue St. Germain and the Boul'Mich,
while the thunderous Parisian traffic roared past him and the high-strung
Parisian inhabitants sat smoking all around him. Wet pavement, diesel exhaust
and Gauloises, that was the smell of Paris: and thanks to the latter two, the
air was blue and nearly unbreatheable.
In the right mood and
under the right circumstances Dorian rather liked the Parisians, but today he
found them merely wearing. All the people who passed him leaned forward as if
walking into a strong wind, and the slowest gait visible was a fast scuttle.
Strolling seemed unheard of. Wherever the crowds were going, they obviously
couldn't wait to get there. A little valium in the water supply, Dorian mused,
would do the Parisians absolutely no harm at all... All the young couples at the tables around him-- they were almost
all young, this being the university district, and almost all couples, the
French being hopelessly
heterosexual most of the time-- were
carrying on animated conversations, their hands and the inevitable cigarettes
held in them never stopping for a moment. Dorian felt surrounded by a forest of
fluttering little birds and was obsessively remembering the incomprehensible
punchline to a joke some small American child had once told him on a
trans-Atlantic liner: "Let your pages do the walking through the yellow
fingers." Fortunately the steak and frites he was eating were excellent,
and the pichet of red wine was superb, even for a vin ordinaire. Otherwise he
might almost- almost- have been tempted to forget the whole thing and go
home.
It was ridiculous, to
think of the de Marquères plotting the
death of a Circassian general. Such
nice people, in spite of their
unfortunate artistic tastes. It was, in
fact, owing to those tastes that Dorian's acquaintance with them had been able
to pass beyond a preliminary reconnoitre of the apartment. Surely it must be
someone else?: except that there were no other de Marquères. The present
Baron's grandfather's grandfather had been ennobled by Napoleon III for
efficient victualling of the Emperor's troops, and since that time the family
had produced one male offspring per generation and no more. Dorian had been
admiring a picture of the only son, a dark charmer whose fascination with the
mechanics of banking and the Bourse seemed almost to outstrip his own dear
James', when that piece of information had emerged. He and the Baron had then
commiserated with each other on the frailty of noble titles, always a
melancholy subject for Dorian. But young Jean-Claude, with his Place d'Etoile
friends, hardly seemed the
sort to get involved in assassination
plots of minor East European
generals. Even the Baron seemed more
likely.
Perhaps the de Marquères
were simply being used by this mysterious M.Serge. Dorian was a little vague on
how one went about passing secret information: his mind furnished the words
'cipher' and 'code' and mistily suggested something like a first edition of -
oh, A Rebours, perhaps - no, an antiquarian dealer: Michelangelo's
sonnets, then- with pinpricks under significant words... "My dear
Baroness, could you possibly give this to the President if you see him tonight
at the Opera? I meant to go myself but I have the most excruciating
migraine..." Well, it was not impossible. The clue would be inside
M.Serge's safe: and that
would have to wait another twelve hours
until the dead of night.
Meanwhile, on Wednesdays
the Baroness was 'at home'. The de
Marquère women had always been famous
for the brilliance of their salons. It was a Baronesse de Marquère who'd
charmed Proust out of his cork-lined room, in spite of his horror of parvenues,
and who had cheered Oscar Wilde's exile by inviting a succession of artistic
and charming young men on the afternoons when the Irishman was in attendance.
Another had borne with unruffled equanimity the aging Colette's cats, which
she'd insisted on bringing with her, the passes Garcia Lorca kept making at her
husband, and Alice B. Toklas' regular requests for the recipe of everything she
ate under the de Marquère roof. Only Ernest Hemingway had succeeded in making
her lose her sang froid: she had requested that his one, drunken, visit not be
repeated. The Baron's mother, an even more accommodating woman, had pretended
not to notice when Genet took the
spoons and salt cellars, and had
allowed Cocteau to decorate her
bathroom with a larger than life size
(in certain areas) nude drawing of Jean
Marais.
The rain was still
holding off, andit was a short pleasant walk to the apartment in the Rue de
Bièvre. Dorian was not, in fact, prepared for the gendarmes in the street when
he reached it, who stopped him and civilly inquired his business. They seemed
delighted to learn that he was an English lord and that he was off to visit a
French baron; especially as it transpired that they were presently guarding the
residence of the new Socialist president. Wondering just why the French
insisted on calling themselves republicans, Dorian at last found himself
entering the third floor 'appartement de grand standing', and being kissed on
both cheeks by Madame la Baronne in a cloud of Chanel perfume and a dress from
the same house.
"My dear Lord
Gloria, it's been an age, but simply an eternity, since I saw you last. Henri,
it's Dorian."
"Ah, mon vieux, how
are things going?" The Baron too kissed him twice. Though older than
Dorian cared for, he was still a handsome man, with the high cheekbones and
cat-like good looks common to many Parisians. It was as well that he also
possessed a shapely skull because, like so many of his countrymen, his hair had
started to recede when he was still in his thirties. All those hormones, thought
the Earl, had certain drawbacks. Aloud, he said, "Oh, very well, very
well, thank you. I came to catch the new exhibit at the Louvre. But my dear
Baron, I'm taking you from your guests."
"Oh, that's
alright." He looked down his thin nose with amusement and murmured, sotto
voce, "This lot can take care of themselves. They never stop talking long
enough to notice whether we're there or not. A new fad of Mathilde's. If you're
going to sit in on the conversation, by all means let Georges bring you a gin
and cassis. A double, Georges. And another one for me."
Dorian took his drink
with some hesitation and perched on a deep-gold brocade armchair. A number of
men and women were keeping up a lively conversation, finishing each other's
sentences and laughing uproariously.
"Well," one was
saying, "we no longer need to persevere, since the père sevère has traded
l'amour for la mort-"
"Achieved
closure," another chimed in.
"Taking his père
versions with him," a third laughed.
"He never cared for
mine. Said I kept inserting my Name of
the Father into inappropriate
lacuna-"
"Lacana-"
"Never that. All I
wanted was to bring signification to someone's manque, or some man's c- I won't
say it-"
"Another
repressed signifier?"
"Lack is expressed
by zero, the round hole, hence the signified must be the same above and below
and on both sides. After all, the woman doesn't exist..."
Eroica, who had thought
he understood French, was utterly adrift. "The stern Father?"
"Name of the Father?" It sounded like Christianity to him. Tentatively
he tapped the shoulder of the woman sitting on his right.
"Excuse me, are they
talking about religion?"
She looked at him in
surprise. "No of course not. Penises."
Dorian, who'd thought he
knew something about that subject too, was floored. He looked around for Henri
or Mathilde, hoping for enlightenment or at any rate sanity. But the Baron was
deep in discussion with a solid bull-dog of a man who had 'banker' written
all over him, while his hostess and a
pair of woman friends were
having a simultaneous three-way
conversation, their low voices swooping up and down like swallows and their
hands fluttering like butterflies' wings: "Mais c'est terrible, cette
pauvre fille..." "Bien qu'elle soit un peu complexée, quoi..."
"Mais c'est tout a fait dingue, comme disent les gosses..."
Over in the corner,
however, a single man stood leafing through one of the large folios that the
Baron kept out on the table. A curé of some sort, to judge by the black
cassock: although Dorian hadn't realized the Church had become so liberal in
the length it allowed its priests to wear their hair. This one's blonde
ponytail reached halfway down his back. Was that a soutaine he had on?
On closer view it looked more like some kind of cossack coat with a slightly
tailored waist, its severe black relieved only by a thin red piping on the
front between the high rounded collar and the hem. The skirt stopped just below
the calf,
showing black boots beneath. Something
about the whole ensemble suggested old photographs of Dostoevsky and Rasputin...
"Hello," he
said to the stranger. "Do allow me to introduce
myself. I'm..."
The other's head turned
and Dorian lost his breath. A pale, plain face- no, a pale beautiful face- no, not
pale... Even as he looked it changed almost out of recognition. It was like
watching someone peel the backing off a transfer, the bright colours suddenly
showing clearly where all had been undefined a moment before. Suddenly there
was life and a world of meaning in the wide carved mouth, the long oval face
with its high cheekbones, the upslanting brows, and the thick-lashed-- eye:
because the other one was covered by a black silk eye-patch.
Serge, he thought, but
remotely, while last night's opera sang gloriously in his head: o sognio, o
maraviglia, divina belleza... Their
eyes locked together. Serge's fingers, long and delicate, moved trance-like to
touch, ever so gently and briefly, the ravelled gold silk of Dorian's curls,
and a small spasm shook the slender black-clad frame.
"You are?" The
voice was light in timbre, barely above a murmur.
"Dorian." His
own hand reached undirected to place its first
two fingers on that beautiful mouth.
The warm lips moved as the other said his name, "Serge", making it
into a kiss.
"Shall we
leave?" Afterwards, he wasn't sure which of them had put words to the
thought that was in both their minds. Acting as if they had one consciousness,
they slipped out of the flat, Serge flipping a hand at the Baron over the
banker's head, Dorian kissing the back of Mathilde's neck in passing and murmuring
"A'voir, chérie. Des
affaires..".
Five minutes brought them
to the Rue Galande. Serge unlocked the narrow door and Dorian entered a green
and brown twilight, eyes barely taking in dark wooden bookshelves and display
tables in the dim light that came through the oilcloth blinds. As Serge turned
from locking the door again, Dorian threw both arms about his neck in blissful
anticipation. Oh. Oh, but--no...
"Oh, my dear,"
he said involuntarily to the look in back of the other's face. No; this was not,
after all, going to be one of those long, slow, friendly sessions he himself
liked so much. Not unless he insisted, and he didn't think he could. When you
offer a meal to a starving man you don't make him sit through cocktails and
canapes and an hour's chat beforehand. Serge's face in the darkened room was
like a panther's glimpsed in the forest, full of a desperate hunger. But he was
keeping himself rigidly in check, refusing, even now, to reach and grab for
what he most needed.
There was no time to debate
the whys and wherefores. Dorian
opened his arms wide, palms up. Take
me, I'm yours. The only line of Rabelais he knew came conveniently to mind to
make his meaning plain. "Fay ce que vouldras," he said, and gave his
sweetest smile.
An answering smile flashed
briefly across the pale features,
then Serge's arms were around him and
his face buried in the mass of Dorian's curls. Hot breath, warm lips and
blunted teeth stormed up and down the side of his neck, across his earlobes and
over his temples. Strong fingers grasped his hips and pressed their groins
tightly together. The Circassian knew what he wanted and Dorian had only to let
him do it. This was all for Serge; his own needs could wait until later. Still
he found himself longing for the moment when that exquisite mouth would come
down on his own. Perversely, it didn't. His eyebrows, his eyelids, the hollow
of his cheekbones, the back of his neck, all were subjected to a fierce and
passionate adoration, but Serge bypassed his lips as if they didn't exist.
A faint sense of
frustration tormented him but there were soon other, pleasanter torments to
think about. The circular motions of the other's thighs had begun a fire
between his legs that made the tight raw silk trousers he wore a hell of
confinement. He undid the buttons of his fly, giving himself some relief. Serge
pulled the bottom of his jumper free and slipped it up and over his head. The
sight of the Earl's naked torso seemed to excite him further: a new shower of
kisses fell on the bare shoulders and chest. Filament-fine strands of yellow
hair brushed
down Dorian's skin, starting small
shudders that had nothing to do with distaste. Long cool hands traced parallel
lines on either side of his spine and slipped at last into the back of his
trousers, moving down and ever down to the base of his body.
Dorian could only cling
tightly with his arms around the other's
neck, feeling himself begin to slide
away on a tide of pleasure. Serge steered them to the nearby desk. Loosing him
just long enough to strip off his coat, fold it to a double thickness and lay
it down as impromptu padding, he bent Dorian over the polished oak surface.
Dorian's face nestled against the smooth fine-woven wool that smelled faintly
of Sobranies and an indefinable odour that must be Serge's own, while his
forearms and hands rested on the smooth worn desk top. He breathed deeply to
relax the tension of anticipation, his finger tip idly tracing the shallow
grain of the wood, while Serge pulled out a drawer and rummaged in it briefly.
Behind him there was the quick snick of a zipper opening and a whisper of
cloth. Strong fingers took hold of the waistband of his own trousers and peeled
them down to his knees.
The mounded cream was
cold at first, but warmed as Serge rubbed it gently into the narrow declivity
and through the tight opening. A supple finger pushed itself in up to the
joint, checking his readiness; satisfied with his acquiescent openness, it
withdrew. Serge took hold of his hips, poised himself, and entered swiftly and
smoothly. The worst moment was over almost before he could feel it, and he
found himself once again in that happily ambiguous place where pain was
indistinguishable from pleasure and pleasure so intense as to be painful.
The familiar fire began
to run through his veins, from the centre of his body up to his forehead and
back down his spine and legs. Serge was perfect, neither too big nor too small,
filling him up beautifully. He adjusted his hips minutely to give the other the
most complete access, and in response that lovely fullness began to move out of
him, but slowly, so slowly, a centimetre at a time. Dorian knitted his brows in
puzzlement. Why? Is he afraid of hurting me...? With infinite care,
Serge withdrew almost completely, waited a long, long moment, and came back at
the same agonizingly deliberate pace. Dorian fretted, his fire
dampened and flagging. This is too
slow, he thought, I can't stand
it, but he willed himself to patience:
this one was for Serge.
Once more Serge quitted
him unhurriedly and then repaired back again in a leisurely fashion, apparently
with all the time in the world. Dorian could have cried with vexation. Where
was the violent ravishment promised a few moments before in that beautiful
animal-like face? Deep within him he felt again the minute movements of
withdrawal but this time there was a difference in his response. Subtle nervous
messages, usually drowned out by the rising clamour of lust, were coming across
loud and clear, tiny responses and unsuspected sensations producing a
cornucopia of unknown pleasures. He felt every millimetre of that careful
retreat and fought it each step of the way. The long instant when Serge stood
within the threshold of his body stoked the fire of
anticipation, and every atom in him
welcomed the loving, painstaking return.
Time as he usually
thought of it ceased to have meaning: awareness was all turned inward to the
exquisite minuet his heightened nerves were playing. Oh, he thought, but
joyfully this time, I can't stand it, I can't stand it. This had definitely
been worth waiting for.
He reared up on his
forearms, the better to receive the gentle thrusts, and Serge's arms came round
to encircle his belly and chest. His climax began mounting in him, slowly and
relentlessly, a heat so intense as to seem almost cold. His fingers clutched
convulsively at the material wadded beneath him. Serge's coat... A slight alarm
sounded in the back of his head. There were few things that Dorian rated higher
than sexual pleasure, but fine workmanship was one of them. For a hideous
instant the certainty of a world-shattering climax fought his
instinctive respect for a beautiful
object. Aesthetics, alas, won.
"Serge- love,"
he gasped, "Just a moment. Your coat..."
The deliberate movement
stopped, disconcerted. The body welded to his began to shake. Serge put his
head down on Dorian's shoulder and laughed silently but convulsively, so hard
that he slipped out from him entirely.
"I'm sorry,"
said Dorian, crestfallen in more ways than one.
Serge shook his head, the loosened hair
flying.
"It's- it's
alright," he gasped. "I shouldn't have laughed.
Shall we start again?"
Without waiting for an
answer he knelt and pulled Dorian's pants off completely, prising the shoes off
along with them. He was in no hurry to get up, seeming to feel a need first to
kiss and caress every inch of the sensitive skin on the back of Dorian's legs.
By the time he reached the swelling hills at the top, Dorian was in a fair way
to being in his previous condition. He pushed the coat to the far end of the
desk: a wise precaution, because Serge's mouth suddenly enveloped the sac
between his legs, causing a sprinkle of dew to fall on the desktop. He rocked a
little on his toes, wanting to have his partner inside him before his climax
came.
"Darling," he
gasped through the pounding in his blood, "Please- take me..."
Serge complied- but with
his tongue. Strong and pointed, it
darted between his cheeks, focussing
unerringly on what had become
the tight centre of Dorian's being. It
was more than he could bear. Fists clenched, mouth open, he succumbed so
fiercely to his orgasm that for a few moments it was as if he ceased to exist
entirely.
When he came back to
himself, Serge had him turned around and
was holding him against his chest.
Raising a flushed wet face, he
found the one grey eye regarding him
with both tender satisfaction
and the predatory sparklings of lust.
"Ready?" the
other murmured, and Dorian nodded. Serge laid
him on his back on the desk, legs
hooked over his shoulders.
Stretching out a hand for the cream he
renewed their lubrication, then entered him with the same easy mastery as
before. He repeated the slow deliberate stroke, a little faster this time, in
and out, then harder and harder. His long fine hair had slipped out of its band
and fell across the blind sweating face as he laboured within Dorian. When the
spasm began Sergei reached over and pulled him up by the shoulders; responding
to his cue, Dorian wrapped arms and legs around the heaving body and held him
through the violent upheaval of his climax.
Serge shook for several
moments afterwards, his face buried in the waves of golden hair and his breath
sobbing in Dorian's ear. Gradually he calmed, the muscles growing slack and
relaxed. At length he looked up. His face was streaked with sweat and tears,
and a painful red line showed across his forehead where the band of the
eyepatch had shifted a little, but his expression was composed.
"Thank you," he
said, simply.
"The pleasure's
mine," said Dorian. "You're a very patient lover."
"My partners are
patient. I'm just slow. I assure you I've
had complaints."
"The best things are
always worth waiting for," Dorian rejoined cheerfully, retrieving his
pants, "and that was definitely one of the best I've ever
had."
"You're very kind,"
Serge said with an odd formality. "May I
offer you a little hospitality? My
apartments are upstairs..."
"Thanks," said
Dorian. "I'd be glad to freshen up a bit. Lead
on, dear."
3.
Serge took him silently
up the cold stone stairway at the back of the building and unlocked a thick oak
door on the second floor. Pushing aside the moss green velvet curtain which
covered the entranceway on the inside, he let his guest into a parqueted foyer,
dim in the halflight. He flicked on the overhead chandelier and pressed another
button, hidden behind the curtain, which Dorian recognized as a security alert
attached probably to the nearest police station. The walls of the hallway were
papered in lozenged burgundy above dark wood panelling, and dotted here and
there with gilt mirrors and miniature oil paintings. Halfway along
the corridor Serge indicated a bathroom
to Dorian, and left him there to put himself to rights.
Fifteen minutes later,
feeling better for a little hot water, sandalwood soap, and a thick white towel,
he emerged and went in search of his host. Following an enticing smell of
coffee and the muted clink of china, he found him in a pale green and gold
livingroom, setting out small cups and saucers next to the large brass samovar.
"Do you drink
coffee?" Serge asked. "It's very black."
"The way I love
it," Dorian assured him, coming over and
hugging him from behind,
"Serge."
"Call me
Sergei," he said, crossing his arms over Dorian's.
"Is that your real
name?"
"What it turns into
in Russian. A bit closer to the original
than the French."
"French isn't much
good with foreign names, is it?" Dorian agreed, remembering how he tended
to turn into 'Milord Rei de Gloire' on hotel registers.
"And the dialect I
speak is one of the more difficult ones. My real name is virtually
unpronounceable by foreigners."
"Try me."
He did. The 's' was still
there, but the vowel had an unfamiliar roll, the r was flapped, the g was
somewhere between a v and an f, and the whole thing ended in a suppressed
sneeze.
"I suppose I shouldn't
ask about your last name," said Dorian, a little appalled.
"Better not,"
Sergei agreed serenely. "May I ask yours?"
"Red Gloria- but
it's my title, not my name. I'm an earl-- an
English nobleman," he explained,
remembering European insularity
about British noble orders.
Sergei turned his head,
amusement lighting his face. "I'm
honoured."
"Not at all. Earls
are fairly thick on the ground in England."
"My father was a
sheep farmer. His son has definitely come up
in the world."
The curving smile and mischievous
eye made Dorian's legs go
weak all over again. He'd never known
anyone with such a shifting clear-and-cloudy beauty as Sergei's: but when the
sun was shining, as it was now, he was irresistible. Dorian didn't even try. He
turned the pale face towards him and reached over to give it a kiss. Sergei
laid his hand gently but firmly over Dorian's mouth.
"I'm sorry," he
said, sounding it. "I can't."
"But darling, why
ever not?"
"It's a long
story." His finger stroked Dorian's lips tenderly but his expression
showed no sign of giving in. "Just accept that that's the way it is."
Dorian acquiesced
gracefully- for the moment. He knew he was lucky that his own nature led him to
have preferences rather than prejudices, and he tried to be patient with those
partners whose ideas of masculinity forbade them the enjoyment of certain
pleasures: patient, at least, until he could bring them round to a more
balanced view of the matter. Well, like Klaus... But not being able to kiss
Sergei's mouth was a definite deprivation: and, really, nothing else about him
suggested one of those he-men who think tenderness an effeminate intrusion on
manly sex. He was going to have to get to work very soon on this annoying
little quirk of Sergei's.
Meanwhile he picked up
his coffee cup and changed the subject.
"This is a lovely
room. Did you decorate it yourself?"
"Yes, mostly. A
pastoral theme."
It was easy to see what
he meant. On the pale-green toile de
Jouy wallpaper, 18th century shepherds
and sheperdesses cavorted
charmingly. The arm chairs and the
small sofa were covered in floral silks, and the gold-green rug was dotted with
small flowers. The furniture was light, cream-coloured Louis XV, court chairs
playing at being peasant furnishings. On one wall, a large tapestry showed a
group of women doing much the same thing, reclining gracefully under a tree
with their silken skirts arranged to good advantage, listening to a white
wigged shepherd reading verse from a book.
"It's based on
Watteau's Divertissements Champêtres," Dorian
said, recognizing the subject.
"Quite right. Do you
collect as well?"
"As much as I can.
Oils and porcelain, mostly." He smiled
mischievously at Sergei. "I find
prints depress me. So washed out.
And oil paintings are so glorious, so
warm..."
"And so expensive.
Especially in this period. The masterpieces are all in galleries. You can have
third rate artists at astronomical prices, or a simulacrum, like that." He
indicated the tapestry.
"I don't believe in
settling for second best," Dorian said firmly.
"I used to agree
with you. If I couldn't have the real thing it seemed more honest to have
nothing. Now I'm not so sure. There's a certain comfort in substitutes. They
remind you that the real thing exists, even if not for you."
"But why not
for you?" Dorian argued. "If you want a thing it
belongs to you already. Acquiring it is
just a formality."
Sergei was looking at him
with an odd tenderness. "If you want a thing, it probably is yours.
You're a very rare type. Most of us have to settle for what we can get- or what
we can keep." His hand went involuntarily to his right eye.
"You lost that in
the war?"
"Along with other
things," Sergei said, turning his head aside. "I suppose the Baron
told you?"
In fact, Dorian couldn't
immediately recall where he'd heard the story. He was more concerned that
Sergei was withdrawing from him and he sought for a topic to bring him back.
"Mm," he said.
"It was you who supplied de Marquère with most
of his collection?"
"A large amount.
Now, there's a man who actually prefers prints to oils. I think he finds them
more- rational, if you understand me. He said once that he thinks oil paintings
overdone. Mind you, we were talking about his wife's collection at the time, so
perhaps it's not the medium itself he objects to."
"They are
ugly, aren't they?"
"And she's such a
nice woman."
"And you? Which do
you prefer? You don't have any prints
here, I noticed."
"Books are my
passion and prints are merely business. That way I avoid the dealer's
temptation, to keep the best stock for oneself; and meanwhile the rent still
has to be paid. But as between paintings and prints- I don't know. Sometimes I
agree with the Baron. The world in the oil paintings- so sensual, so enticing,
so fraudulent. It's not true, any of it. But I love them. Watteau, Fragonard,
Boucher... That image of an Arcady: the perfect garden world where
shepherdesses wear silk and powdered wigs, and life is a picnic on a long
summer's afternoon."
His glance flicked over
at Dorian, as if wondering how much he would understand. "My country is
beautiful in a primitive way- the mountains at dawn, or the sunsets in winter;
but there's no... no grace, no delicacy," he said as if in explanation.
"The men are farmers, and like farmers everywhere concerned mostly with survival.
From time to time they get drunk and start fights with each other; that's their
idea of fun. I think they have feuds more to break the monotony of their lives
than to get a little more land. The women marry at fifteen and are
grandmothers- crones- twenty years later. When I look around me here, I can't
believe such a place exists. I don't know how anybody stands it. No books, no
paintings, no music to speak of; no scholars, no ideas, no
conversation..."
Sergei turned to him with
a smile that meant to be sardonic but which succeeded only in being rueful.
"I'm greedy, Lord
Gloria. I want it all. I want the beauty of my country, the simplicity of my
life there; and I want the pleasures and amenities of civilization. In short, I
want an Arcady, where the shepherds discuss the nature of love while they shear
their sheep."
Dorian remembered a
summer spent on his godfather's farm in
Shropshire. "Have you ever sheared
a sheep? They don't give you much chance for conversation."
Sergei laughed
delightedly. "No they don't. Sheep deserve all
their reputation for stupidity and then
some. But I'm surprised
you know."
"Landed gentry often
means just that. We're supposed to know
how to manage our farms. But the
flies-"
"And the green
shit-"
"And your hands get
so greasy-"
"Lanolin is
good for the skin."
"But it smells. I'll
take mine from a tube."
"A jar, actually.
It's what I keep in the desk."
Dorian blushed
beautifully at the memory.
"So you've created
an Arcady for yourself here. And the
shepherds?"
"There are enough of
them. Willing and agreeable young men; and being French, they certainly know
how to converse. It's more a question of getting them to shut up at critical
moments. They take ideas seriously and life- including romance- not at all.
Love comes and it's wonderful, and then it goes and it's sad, and then it comes
again. Very pleasant and bittersweet, like a Piaf song. But I'm rattling on.
Sorry. I'm usually what we call at home a no-mouth."
"Meaning?"
"Meaning I don't
talk much. More coffee?"
"Please."
Dorian handed over his cup.
"If you'll wait a
moment, there are some cakes from Printemps
as well." Sergei disappeared in
the direction of the kitchen leaving his guest, bemused, to consider the things
his host had left unsaid.
After all these months
besieging the barbed and barricaded citadel of Major Klaus von dem Eberbach, it
was a pleasure to be with someone as velvety smooth, as silkenly supple, as
Sergei. The same ideas, the same tastes, the same values: all welcoming and
easy, with no little frictions, no resistances. Sergei was like his own beloved
Arcadia, a civilized garden within walls made only for delight. One could
wander there at will, picking flowers and whiling away the time, with no
thought but of pleasure. A few years ago that would have been enough for
Dorian; and a few years ago he wouldn't have noticed anything more. It must
have been his experience with Klaus that had sharpened his vision: for now he
could see, clear as noonday, that in the centre of the garden was a tower, and
in that tower a man whom, he suspected, few if any of
his lovers knew existed. Poor Sergei.
That was the real hunger in him: not for sex, whatever he himself might think,
but for someone who would have the love and the patience to besiege his
isolation, demanding that he show himself as he truly was: someone who would do
for him what Dorian was doing for Klaus.
And poor Dorian, if it
came to that. Sergei knew himself better than the Major; he would be much more
appreciative of Eroica's efforts. Whereas Klaus- beautiful, delightful,
damnable Klaus- fought him at every turn, not giving an inch. But then again,
maybe not. Sergei was obviously a veteran in the wars of love, one who knew all
the tricks of strategy and sieges. It would be no easy matter to reduce his
defences. Whereas Klaus had only the one weapon at his disposal, an hysterical
denial of everything Dorian stood for; and when that was exhausted and his
native honesty asserted itself, the citadel would capitulate at once and
entirely. There was at least that advantage in loving a man with a
scrupulous conscience.
But how long would it be?
When would he be as comfortable with Klaus as he was with this man he'd met
less than two hours ago? He wanted the same friendliness, the same easy
intimacy, the same delight in Klaus' face when Klaus looked at him...
Sergei, behind him,
brushed a finger down the side of his cheek.
"Whoever he is,
can't you forget him for a little, now that
I'm here?"
Dorian smiled up. "I
will if you kiss me."
Sergei lifted the heavy
mass of golden curls with both hands
and leaned down to kiss the bare nape
of Dorian's neck.
"On the mouth,"
Dorian insisted, pouting. Sergei smiled a little sadly.
"I told you, I
can't."
"Not even for
me?"
"Not even for
you."
"This is
torture."
"I'm sorry. No-one
else has minded much."
"No-one else has my
aesthetic instincts. Everything beautiful in the world belongs to me by right.
And your mouth is extremely beautiful. Why are you keeping it from me?"
Sergei sat down beside
him.
"Try to understand.
In my country we are very conservative. Men like me-"
"Us."
"How easily you say
it. Men like us fear for their- our- lives. In my village, what we did
downstairs would get us stoned in the streets."
"This isn't your
village, it's Paris. Isn't it time you got
rid of your country attitudes?"
"That's not
it." Sergei sighed. "This is hard to explain. When
did you first fall in love?"
"When I was four.
The gardener's boy. I used to steal lump sugar from the tea-table and give it
to him in the potting shed."
Unexpectedly, Sergei laughed.
"I was a little older. After my
father was killed, my oldest brother
took over the family. I had brains- well, he thought I did; and he decided I
should go on to high school in the city down in the plains. I made a friend
there." His eye was distant, looking at a memory too private to bring a
change of expression to his face.
"We were
inseparable. Studied together, ate together, bathed
together, shared a bed at night- nobody
in my country sleeps alone; we don't have the space. You can imagine what it
would be like even here, a hundred adolescent boys cooped up together with no
women around at all. At home we see only our mothers and our sisters until they
get married; I seldom met even my brothers' wives. And in my country men touch
each other all the time, and kiss and embrace. The boys made jokes, of course.
There was a lot of smutty horseplay. Everybody seemed to know what men do
together. That was how I found out as well."
"And there were
romantic friendships. The literature of my country, what there is of it, is all
medieval sagas-- comrade warriors who use the same shield as a pillow, who
swear vows of eternal devotion the night before the battle and die in each
other's arms the next day. For him, I think, our friendship was like that. At
least I hope, now, that it was."
"He always had an
arm around my shoulder or my neck, and he would kiss me when he was happy or
excited, which was a lot of the time... We did everything but have sex
together. I wanted to, but I was afraid to ask; afraid he would look at me as
if I was a monster and begin to hate me; afraid that I would lose the happiness
I had, even if it wasn't perfect... I hope he wasn't thinking the same thing,
wanting me but afraid to say it."
Sergei fell silent.
Dorian put his arms around him. "What
happened?"
"There was a battle,
our first one. Battle: five hundred men
fighting over a few acres too barren to
do anything but graze goats on. I never thought twice about it at the time.
Everyone in my country is a soldier. You fight for your kinsmen and your
kinsmen's allies. It's what a man does." He paused. "We kissed each
other before the fighting started, like Turmis and Bayalim leaving the keep,
going out to face the Turks." There was another pause. "I've never
told anyone else about this. I don't know why--" He drew a deep breath,
then said without expression, "I was there when he died. I knew then that
he would be the last man I'd ever kiss like that. A little later I left home,
left my country, and began wandering. And that's the whole story."
He started to move away
but Dorian held him tightly.
"That's so
beautiful," he said, swallowing the lump in his throat, "and I'm so
sorry." He blinked away tears. "Are you angry that I made you tell
me?"
Sergei relaxed against
him. "No," he said eventually, "No,
I'm not." He turned in Dorian's
arms and took his face between his
hands as if it were a precious object.
Once again the sun shone through the clouds, lighting up the pale features from
within.
"Whoever he is, he's
a lucky man."
"He doesn't want
me."
"He will. How could
he resist?"
Dorian smiled, wobbly but
cheekily. "That's what I think. But
he does."
"Lord Gloria, you're
wonderful. You're like an August morning
after a week of Parisian rain. Come
upstairs. There's one more thing I should show you."
He took him to the stairs
leading to the third floor, talking
as he went.
"You must have had a
classic English education. I suppose you
read Vergil?"
"Endlessly. I
preferred Catullus.
"Some people do.
What Vergil? Just the Aeneid? Or did you
make it to the Eclogues?"
"Possibly. I forgot
it all as soon as I could."
"So you wouldn't
remember the second Eclogue? "'Formosum
pastor Corydon ardebat Alexim/ delicias
domini, nec quid speraret
habebat."'
"Oh, that one,"
said Dorian, enlightened. "'Corydon the
shepherd burned with love for his
master's favourite/ Handsome
Alexis, but saw little reason for
hope.' We used to pass it around
the dormitory at night. Poor old
Corydon. I always felt sorry for
him, turned down by a spoiled little
tart like that."
"A certain Frenchman
agreed with you, back in the eighteenth
century. He rewrote the story in heroic
couplets and gave it a happy ending." Sergei was leading him down the
length of the corridor, passing half opened doors on the way. Dorian had a
glimpse of a deep rose canopied bed with dark wooden posts in one room, and
ceiling high bookshelves with tobacco-coloured leather armchairs in another.
But the room they turned into, on the right near the end of the hall, was small
and nearly unfurnished, containing only a plain mahogany escritoire and chair,
several filing cabinets, and a conspicuous wall safe.
"I keep it locked in
here for security," Sergei said, and
confused Dorian by walking right past
the safe. At his noise of
surprise the Circassian stopped and
smiled.
"That?" he
asked, nodding at the large metal plate. "Window
dressing. Accounts and tax returns and
so on. The really valuable things are here." He stopped at a point halfway
along the opposite wall and ran his hands down the narrow rectangular molding.
The whole panel came out, revealing the door of a much smaller safe. His long
fingers spun the dial, opened the door and took out a canvas packet which he
brought over to the desk.
Carefully he unwrapped
the layers to reveal a quarto volume
bound in cream calfskin, with the name
printed on the spine in faded gold lettering: Les Amours d'Alexys et Corydon.
"No names, either of
the author or illustrator," Sergei noted. "Homosexuals were still
castrated and burned at the stake in eighteenth century France. That's why it
was published in Leiden. But the pictures speak for themselves. You can guess
whose work they are." He opened the book at random.
The elongated wavering
letters of eighteenth century typeface
covered the right hand page, but
Dorian's eye went at once to the left, where a ringletted young shepherd,
wearing buskins and nothing else, was depicted in a very friendly pose with a
slender dark-haired youth of classical mien. The tender pink flesh, the shining
golden hair, the rose red of the dark youth's mantle and the deep green
surrounding trees glowed richly in spite of age, causing Dorian's pulse to beat
more strongly.
"Watteau," he
murmured, almost absently, and turned to another page. Here the two young men were seen at the moment
of consummation, a tangle of arms and legs on the greensward: but the faces
showed a serene, unhurried happiness as they gazed tranquilly into each other's
eyes. Dorian made a little noise, almost of pain.
"Corydon is you to
the life," Sergei said. "I saw it at once." It was true, but he
barely noticed; for Alexis' face could have been drawn from Klaus'. A young
Klaus, one he had never known, no more than eighteen. He turned the pages
slowly, poised between delight and agony at the sight of himself and Klaus
indulging unstintingly in all those pleasures which the real Klaus would never
allow him. He couldn't bear to go on looking and he couldn't bear to stop. At
last he put both hands down on the table and closed his eyes, trying to still
his trembling.
"Sergei," he
said, using words he'd never thought to hear from his mouth, "What do you
want for it?"
He knew the answer before
the other spoke. "I'm sorry. It's
not for sale."
"Why not?" he
asked from the depths of his frustration, but
suddenly he knew that answer too.
"The same reason you won't kiss me?"
Sergei nodded. "Not
a close resemblance, but enough. It made
my heart stop the first time I saw
it." His forefinger briefly stroked the head of the dark figure as if it
caressed the hair of a living being. A pang of jealousy went through Dorian,
but he tried to calm it. It wasn't Klaus Sergei wanted, only someone long dead
who looked a little, just a little, like him. That was understandable. Taking
what comfort he could, Dorian put both arms around the other's neck and hugged
him hard. Sergei hugged him back. In the next room a clock played a short
minuet and struck five.
"Lord Gloria."
"Can't you call me
Dorian?"
"I'm a peasant. It
pleases me no end to have an aristocrat in
my arms. Dorian-- I have to go to Dijon
tonight on business. I return tomorrow evening. Will you still be in
Paris?"
"Yes. What time will
you get back?"
"Not before eight.
Can you come then?"
"Yes."
"If something comes
up, where shall I leave a message?"
"I always stay at
the Georges V. Can I reach you here?"
"Yes. I'm in the
book."
Serge escorted him down
the two flights of stairs. In the
store he kissed him on both cheeks.
"Until tomorrow."
"Until
tomorrow." Dorian waved his fingers, and walked out into the street.
4.
Dizzy with joy and
excitement and frustration, he walked unseeingly towards the Boul' Mich. What
luck, what a find, how beautiful... He wasn't entirely certain if he meant the
Watteau prints or Sergei or some combination of both. Those intimate glowing
pictures, mixed with the memories of the preceding love-making, contrived to
send him into a fever of desire. He wanted that book, he wanted Klaus, he
wanted Sergei; it-- he-- they belonged to him. And by some
incomprehensible quirk of a sadistic universe, at the moment he didn't have any
one of them. Patience, patience. Patience. He would have them all, soon
enough. What he needed now was some distraction to keep him
occupied until his meeting tomorrow
with Klaus. Well, of course, first of all he had to take care of Klaus' errand
itself. That assassination plot. He was supposed to break into--
It felt like walking into
a wall. For a moment his mind floundered in confusion, as if he'd just been
startled out of a deep sleep. It took several moments of concentration before
he could accept the plain fact, which somehow had simply not occurred to him
before. Incredible as it was, the M.Serge whom Klaus suspected of promoting an
assassination was the Sergei he'd just spent the afternoon with.
He put a hand to his
spinning head, and collapsed into a nearby café chair. How lucky that there
were always cafés in Paris. You never knew when you were going to have to sit
down in a hurry.
But it was ludicrous.
Sergei was no murderer. No-one with his
beautiful sensibilities could be involved
in anything of the sort.
Klaus was simply wrong: about him,
about the Marquères, about the
whole situation. He'd call him up and
tell him- that number was still in his wallet... And how would he convince his
dear obstinate Major of what he knew to be the truth? "You're saying he's
not a killer because you slept with him?!?" No, obviously that
approach wouldn't work.
Well, there was no help
for it. On principle he disliked the idea of breaking into an acquaintance's
house. It was, if nothing else, bad manners. But his motives were impeccably
disinterested: he wanted only to clear Sergei of this ridiculous suspicion.
When his safe proved to be empty of anything incriminating, Klaus would have to
turn his attention to finding the real plotters; and maybe someday Dorian would
tell Sergei how he'd burgled his house to prove that he wasn't an international
assassin.
Since the place was
empty, there was no need to wait til the
dead of night before making his entry.
Accordingly, after returning to his hotel for dinner and a change into black
clothes, Dorian was back in the Rue Galande well before eleven. The French
bourgeoisie- healthy, wealthy and wise as ever- went to bed at a ridiculous
hour, so the neighbouring apartments were mostly dark as he began his ascent up
the building and entered by an attic skylight. The low garret space barely gave
him room to stand up in and he ran quickly down the two flights to the front
hallway. Shutting off the alarm as he had seen Sergei do, he returned to the
small room on the third floor.
Ever cautious, he did his
reconnoitring by torchlight. Business before pleasure, he thought, and worked
at the larger wall safe for a minute or two before hearing the click of the
tumblers. As Sergei had said, there were accounts and tax files and records of
major orders; a boring mass of paper kept under lock only to preserve it from
possible fires. He closed the door with a sense of duty done and turned his
attention to the hidden safe. Sergei had been quick as he opened it, but Eroica's
practised eye had noted the combination automatically.
Heart beating wildly, he
took out the quarto. Just one look, he thought, unwrapping it and opening the
stiff covers. Yes, there it was, as beautiful as he remembered: himself and
Klaus disporting themselves in Arcadia. Klaus kissing him passionately, Klaus
lying on his back with raised legs, Klaus--hmm, what was Klaus doing in this
one? Or was it a question of what he was doing to Klaus? Either way, it didn't
look anatomically possible, although it might be fun to try. The Major didn't
have, as far as he knew, a particularly bad back, and a few pillows might
relieve the strain if one were to undertake it in an indoor setting...
With a superhuman effort,
Dorian closed the book. If he wanted the real Klaus, he'd better get on with
the business at hand. Now for the rest of Sergei's papers.
There were very few. A
thin notebook contained a list of
names and phone numbers. Michel,
Jean-Luc, Thierry, Menoud... There were no last names: Sergei's 'shepherds',
presumably. A bulky manila envelope held a large number of new Deutschmarks,
probably for buying trips in Europe; as good an international currency as any.
And in the wooden box...
They were handwritten,
five or six sheets of thin onionskin
paper, each with numbers at the top
that looked like dates. So they must be letters: but he couldn't read a word of
the foreign script. Letters from home, no doubt. No doubt in his mind.
But when Klaus asked him what was in the safe, and he answered-- a list of
names and phone numbers, a large amount of money, and letters in a foreign
language; well, it was easy to see how that could all be made to add up to a
suspicious total. Dorian considered his dilemma. It was no use thinking of
lying: the Major seemed to have a second sense for his prevarications and
dissimulations. But the only
alternative was to take the letters, and this occasioned a slight crisis of,
not so much conscience as aesthetics.
Eroica had stringent
principles when it came to his metier. He took what would make Dorian Red
Gloria happy and left the rest. Stealing someone else's letters was-- vulgar:
like a private detective tracking a straying husband. Dorian disliked having
the integrity of his romanticism compromised by mundane theft, but in a good cause
he could stoop to anything.
And this was unarguably a
good cause. It was necessary to clear Sergei of suspicion and necessary to
satisfy Klaus. And as satisfying Klaus was necessary to Dorian's own emotional
well-being, he concluded happily that the present situation in no way violated
his high standards of behaviour. The only problem was the slight possibility
that Sergei would discover that the letters were missing before he had a chance
to put them back. Well, and if he did, Dorian would simply have to tell him the
whole story. And being Sergei, he'd probably think it all very funny. Sergei
seemed to find him terribly amusing quite a lot of the time.
He slipped the thin
packet into his waistband under the black
windcheater. Why hadn't it occurred to
him that he might have to take something away with him? He'd have worn a jacket
with pockets. Silly of him. So now for Corydon and Alexis. He began another
ardent perusal of the pictures but stopped himself suddenly. Klaus- the real
Klaus- was expecting his call; it wouldn't do to keep the Major waiting. He
stole a last look at the frontispiece, where the two of them embraced smilingly
under a tree. Sergei was right: if only one could live in Arcadia. Quickly he
rewrapped the book in its canvas covering. He'd take it with
him, of course--
-- only there was no place to put it.
He gaped momentarily,
shocked beyond words that his unconscious mind could betray him so basely. Was
that why he'd worn an outfit with no pockets? But what on earth for? The book
was clearly his. Even Sergei had agreed that Dorian was entitled to whatever
Dorian wanted, and he knew Dorian wanted this. He wouldn't mind him taking it.
Well, he wouldn't mind much. Well... He was remembering, unwillingly, Sergei's
forefinger stroking the pictured youth's hair, gently and tenderly. For Dorian
and the love of his life there was a future and the promise of happiness to
come. For Sergei and his friend all was over. There was nothing but memories.
Yes, but... But how could
he leave the book here? Of course he was sorry for Sergei, but... It would be
like handing Klaus over to another man. The idea was unbearable.
He switched off the torch as if darkness would somehow assist his thoughts. There was no problem with the lack of pockets. He'd tuck his windcheater into hi