The air at
the end of the corridor grew warmer and steamier. It appeared that preparations
for dinner were, literally, in full boil. He heard Majek talking in the kitchen
and his heart rose as he hastened to the door.
"You
could make yourself useful," Majek's deep voice chided him. His mouth was
open to respond when he realized Majek wasn't talking to him. Sitting on the
stool by the counter was a large blond man, chin on fist, watching Majek's
activities in smiling indolence. Dorian blinked. The newcomer was gorgeous, but
absolutely. A thick mane of untamed gold hair, deeper than the Aouille light
blond; night-blue eyes that danced in ambiguous amusement; strong dark-brown
eyebrows that seemed nearly black; a wide mouth that curved sardonically up at
the corners, and a long well-shaped nose. Everything about that face indicated
a vast energy only momentarily at rest, and the whole effect was quite, quite
shocking. It was like coming on a lion or a bonfire sitting there among the
pots and pans. One felt it shouldn't be loose. More personally, it
shouldn't be here, usurping Dorian's place by Majek's side.
"I burn
things when I cook," the man was saying in a satisfied baritone, and
filched a turnip slice from under Majek's knife. Majek smacked his hand,
fatherly, and the other laughed, crunching the vegetable between very white
teeth.
"I did
my best with you," Majek complained, sounding unbearably smug, "but
you still turned out useless."
Was this
Majek's son, come a day early? Not possible, surely. Szintarow was an Acaille.
A blond teenager might go dark but not the other way around. Dorian stepped
into the kitchen.
"Hohh," the man said before he could open his mouth.
"What have we here?"
Majek
turned. "Ah, Dorian. Good. I could use some help."
"Good
evening, Majek," Dorian said complacently, and got himself an apron as if
it were his everyday habit.
"This
is Dorian Red Gloria, an English lord who's guesting with us for a while. Try
not to be too upcountry around him. They're civilized where he comes
from."
"Mmh." The stranger's piercing eyes
looked him over. To his credit, the dubiousness in his gaze wasn't totally
obvious. Dorian looked back at him, smiling pleasantly, and began chopping the
apples Majek indicated. If his thoughts hadn't been so abstracted when he came
to the door, and more particularly if the rest of him hadn't been completely
drained after his afternoon with Araszyam, he might be responding to the
stranger in a rather different fashion. The man was so very much alive, after
all, and really quite stunning. But as it was, Dorian found he could consider
him in a purely aesthetic light with no fleshly promptings at all.
"You're
a friend of Savijc's, I suppose?" the man said.
"He's a
friend of mine," Majek corrected him, and Dorian glowed.
"Since
when?" He sounded astonished.
"Ten
years- eleven."
The blue
eyes narrowed a little. No, the man was no fool. "Can I talk freely in
front of him?"
"As
freely as you like. He's my luck."
"You
find your luck in strange places. A foreigner?"
"You're
hardly the one to talk."
"My men
are my men. I know what they're good for. My luck I make for myself. And
really, Majek-" The eyebrows cocked at Dorian's lace and silk.
"I've told
you not to despise what's different from you--"
"I
know, I know. 'Savijc has his own strengths.' I've heard it already."
"And so
does Dorian. He's the one who spiked your conspiracy with the President."
Dorian and
the stranger both froze. Dorian stared at Halim and Halim looked back at him.
"And
he put a knife through Maaqa," Halim said, recovering. "You nearly
cost me a good man," he told Dorian with a remarkable lack of heat.
"No
hard feelings, I hope. He was trying to flash-fry Sergei and me at the
time."
"So I
heard. He forgot to mention that detail in his report but he confessed it
later."
"Talk
about taking your life in your hands," Majek said. "I always thought
Maaqa had a streak of suicidal chivalry in him."
"He
told me after he knew I wouldn't kill him for it. Honour is one thing
and stupidity quite another. Maaqa isn't stupid."
"Did
you bring him along?"
"Yes,
but you can't have him. I need him. I'll lend you the others."
"I
wouldn't have him. I've got Araszyam here. And you can keep the Italian as
well."
"No
problem. He's still in Tangier. Will six men be enough?"
"Plenty. This will be over on Friday, God willing. Now Kinta's
agreed to change his paper-"
"Only
if Takamatsu agrees to the operation. What if he doesn't?"
"He can
be forced. He'll probably have to be."
"And
what if Szincza doesn't go along with it?"
"He'll
see my point when I tell him the circumstances. He's a realist. He understands
necessity."
Halim shook
his head. "You're getting soft in your old age, brother. Let me take
Takamatsu back to Circassia now- keep him safe until Kinta returns-"
"No."
"He'll
run for it. I would."
"Unlike
you, little brother, Takamatsu is devoted to something other than his own sweet
self." Majek went to the stove and dumped the turnips into one of the
steaming pans of water. "Are you finished those apples? They go in here
too." Dorian slid the apple slices off his carving board.
"If he
was as devoted as all that, he'd have agreed to the operation before now,"
Halim was arguing.
"His
devotion, let's say, is divided between Ruza and Ruza's son." Majek was
rummaging in the refrigerator.
"Ruza's
a long time dead."
"Ruza
has a habit of not staying that way."
"What
do you mean?" Halim's voice was sharp.
"Remember you got the feeling, during the war, that he was still
somewhere around?"
"Right
after Kinta turned up. And how right I was."
"Well,
it's the same since I got here. I can feel him." He came back to the
counter with an armful of green vegetables.
"Here?" Halim indicated the apartment with his chin.
"Here
in T--. Out in the streets. I don't know what he wants, but he won't stay
quiet."
"He
wouldn't, damn him," Halim said. "We took him back and buried him
properly with all the rites, but he still--" He stopped in disgust.
"And if
I sense him, be sure Takamatsu does too. Dorian, wash these, will you?"
Majek turned to him with two heads of bib lettuce. "The drier is next to
the sink."
"Certainly."
"Your
lucky Englishman thinks we're insane," Halim remarked, eyes flicking over
him. "Or a bunch of superstitious peasants. Right, Lord Gloria?"
"Wrong," Dorian said, turning on the taps.
"Westerners don't believe in ghosts. Takamatsu doesn't, for
sure."
"I'm an
Englishman, and we live with our ghosts quite comfortably. The third earl of
Red Gloria- who died in 1668, should you be interested- still uses his bedroom in the east wing of my country
house, and his great-grandson regularly appears in the hothouse to inspect his
fruit trees from the Indies. They're not there any more, of course, but that
doesn't stop him." He put the lettuce in the wire basket and swung it with
vigour. "Oh, sorry," he apologized politely as Halim, swearing,
ducked the shower of water drops.
"Wasn't
it an Englishman who said 'Dead men rise up never'?" Halim scowled as he
dabbed at his jacket with a tea towel.
"Swinburne, yes. A poem called The Garden of Proserpine.
'From too much love of living
From hope and fear set free
We thank with brief thanksgiving
Whatever gods there be
That no man lives forever
That dead men rise up never
That even the weariest river
Winds somewhere safe to sea.'
A lovely poem, but wrong, of course."
There was a
peculiar silence. Halim was looking at him as if he had two heads. Majek said
something in Circassian and Halim, snorting, relaxed.
"This
can't have anything to do with Takamatsu," he said to Majek. "Takamatsu
wouldn't admit that ghosts exist even if he saw one."
"But
Ruza could be behind this refusal of his. Kinta thinks so, and Savijc half
does, and Takamatsu himself is much too insistent that Ruza's got nothing to do
with it. It's pretty odd on the face of it. Takamatsu's always had a careful
regard for his own health and well-being. Why's he choosing death over life
now, I wonder? Could it be Ruza whispering in his ear?" He took the
pannier from Dorian and dumped the lettuce leaves into the salad bowl.
"You
know," Dorian said, helping Majek to tear the lettuce into smaller pieces,
"your brother had a great success here many years ago. Don't you think
it's more likely a ghost from the past you're feeling? A memory from that time
when he was happy?"
"What
I'm feeling isn't happy. It has that genuine Ruza nagging insistence. He wants
me to do something for him and I'm damned if I know what. I'm already doing
what I can to protect his son from his own stupidity."
"Could he want Kinta to have a chance at the fame he missed himself? Maybe he wants you to let him give the paper."
"Then
he can want," Majek said shortly.
"If I
know Ruza, he probably just wants you all to go away," Halim said.
"You're disturbing his happy afterlife."
"What right
has he to tell me to go away?" Majek demanded in a sudden rage that
made Dorian's stomach tighten. "Who does that brother-betrayer think he
is? Going and getting himself killed because his life had become a burden to
him- forgetting his duty, forgetting his family-- He deserted me like a coward
in battle. How dared he? He was my brother. For as long as I can
remember he was there beside me, the way Savijc was there with you. I needed
him. I depended on him. And then suddenly he was gone, and I was alone with
no-one at my back. Do you know what that was like?"
"I know
what that was like," Halim said, and gave his brother a peculiar smile.
"Believe me, I know." Dorian's heart contracted. He knew that smile.
It was the one Klaus wore when he was badly hurt- it meant torn flesh and
dislocated knees and pain that Klaus would never admit to--
He looked
down and went on ripping lettuce. The only thing he could do was pretend not to
notice, the way he'd pretended for Klaus. It was, in fact, the only polite
thing to do. The other two weren't even aware of him.
"Halim-" Majek was looking at him in pity and exasperation.
"Majek," Halim said, smooth and undisturbed. Majek reached
over and knuckled his head.
"Why
did you have to be my brother?"
"Heredity.
It was even odds one of us would be."
"God." Majek, sighing, turned his attention back to the salad.
"Won't you at least change your mind about staying the night?"
"Mnh." Halim shook his head, and took a cucumber from the
bowl. "I've people to see this evening- not the kind you can take official
notice of. I told you, it's just luck I happened to be in town the same time as
you."
"You're
sure you can spare the men?"
"Positive. The next round is still in the planning stages. Maaqa's
enough for protection now. You're sure you don't want me to kidnap
Takamatsu?"
"Yes.
We do this by the book."
"Szincza's book. Good luck. What about some vodka for me too?"
"In the
living room. You want it, you go get it."
"Where's the living room, for god's sake? Trust you to live in a
palace even when you're a tourist."
"Forgive my idiot brother, Dorian. His nurse dropped him on his
head when he was a baby. Could you show him where the vodka is? Then you can
come back. He won't need any more company."
"My
loving brother." Halim got up, put an arm round Majek's neck, and kissed
him on the mouth. Majek swatted his head and Halim went laughing out the door.
Dorian raised his eyebrows at Majek and went after.
"Now,"
said Halim in a very different voice when they were well down the corridor. He
stopped short and loomed over Dorian. They were much of a height- maybe an inch
or two in Halim's favour- but the other man had the bulk that he lacked and
there was no doubt it was all muscle. Nor did it help that Halim's expression
showed not the slightest trace of friendly feeling.
"I know
what you are, you damned sodomite. I've met enough westerners to tell. Don't
think you can pretend with me."
"It
wouldn't occur to me. What I am is no secret."
"Then
what's got into Majek, to take a perfumed ponce like yourself into the
house?"
"Perhaps he wants a change? Maybe he wants something that actually
looks like a damned sodomite instead of just acting like one?"
Halim
smiled, unamused. "Who are you talking about?" He moved threateningly
closer.
Dorian
stepped forward so that they were breast to breast. He matched Halim's smile.
"Who indeed? A certain mercenary I can think of who surrounds himself with
non-Circassian men, strangers who have to be-- secured-- on a regular basis, no
doubt. Right, Squad Commander?" He patted himself on the back for
remembering Halim's title even as he watched the dark eyes go diamond-like with
rage. "Someone who zeroes in on any innocent who walks into his path- as
it might be, a young man who'd been kept from human company all his life and
had no idea of what's allowable in a relationship and what's not." The
other man drew a deep angry breath and Dorian cut in before he could speak.
"Someone who finds it easier to plot his brother's murder than to tell him
that he loves him."
He felt the
reflex jerk of Halim's body. Halim said, in very calm tones, "I'm going to
kill you.
"Good," Dorian answered. "That makes it unanimous. Now
I've had death threats from all three of you." He pressed closer to the
wall-like body. Their eyes held for a long moment.
"I'm
not surprised," Halim said, and stepped back. "Or only surprised that
the others didn't carry through." He looked at Dorian without expression
while his mouth decided whether to go up or down. It went up. "Hell, come
and have some vodka." He clapped him on the shoulder- Dorian, prepared,
managed not to stagger- and dragged him down the hall.
"Here," Dorian instructed him as they reached the living room.
He found the vodka in the liquor cabinet, poured two glasses and gave one to
Halim. They faced each other.
"You're
a degenerate," Halim said with conviction, lifting his glass.
"You're
unspeakable," Dorian responded, lifting his.
"Here's
to us," Halim smiled, and tossed off the vodka in a gulp.
"And
a barbarian," Dorian remarked, taking a small reproving sip.
"That's
no way to drink." Halim poured himself another glass.
"I'm a
degenerate. I'm allowed to savour my liquor." He sat down in an armchair.
"How
nice. I'm a man, and I'm not."
"I
don't understand you," Dorian said exasperated. "You're a law to
yourself. Why put up with these silly shoulds and should nots?"
Halim
laughed shortly. "'A law to myself.' Not likely- not while I'm still
Majek's brother."
"I
don't get the feeling Majek confines you in any way." He put the emphasis
on the 'you.'
"Majek
always confines people. Just by existing. The world isn't big enough for two
when he's around. You have to shape yourself to fit his desires." He
looked at Dorian through his vodka. "Savijc knew that long before I did.
That's why he left. I only found it out when I stopped being the good brother
and left myself."
"The
good brother with his regular conspiracies," Dorian pointed out.
"Of
course. That's what good brothers do in his scheme of things. Why do you think
I kept on trying to kill him? Because that's the only form of love he can
accept- the love of enemies. Oh yes-" he cut off Dorian's protest.
"He did it again with Szincza. I didn't understand how it worked until I
watched it happen there. He drove his son to rebellion, step by step, over
seven long years. Even after they broke and Szincza had run away- Szincza would
have settled at any time but Majek wouldn't give an inch. It was only when
Szincza was ready to kill him that he had a change of heart. He wouldn't settle
for anything less. He'll believe he matters to us if we're ready to murder
him."
This was
mumbo-jumbo. "Why didn't you ever try telling him straight to his face?
Just a plain, simple, 'I love you'? Too scared?"
"I knew
better. I saw what happened with Savijc. He was fool enough to say it, and he
got his heart broken for his pains. Ask him sometime how Majek behaved when he
was wounded and needing comfort."
"How?"
"I
said, ask him."
"Not if
my life depended on it. Give, Halim."
"He got
the back of Majek's hand. Majek treated him like damaged goods, fit for the
rubbish heap."
"But
that was because--" He hesitated, realizing he was about to step on a
landmine. Well, so what? He continued boldly, "--that was because of
Jahn."
"Jahn." It wasn't a question.
"The
outsider. An Acaille. The one who came into your close family circle and made
off with your brother. You're alike, you and Majek- you both hate losing what's
yours. No, don't bother denying it. Sergei threatened to break my neck once for
even suggesting you might have been jealous of Jahn. I don't need any more
proof than that."
"Christ," Halim said after a minute. "Majek was right
about you. Go on- if you dare."
"Easily," Dorian said. "None of you liked him. Ruza hated
him, and with good reason. And then he was dead and you thought everything
could go back to normal. Only it didn't. Sergei had changed." He took a
sip of vodka. "It must have driven Majek crazy. He knew Jahn was a spy,
and I'd guess he told you as well." Halim nodded, eyes intent. "But
you couldn't tell Sergei- you didn't dare tell Sergei- and there he was,
mourning for someone who'd betrayed him and refusing to be comforted. And there
was Majek with his hands tied. And I bet he hates having his hands tied."
"Oh
god," Halim said. "You don't know."
"He
couldn't do anything. He couldn't act and he was going crazy with frustration
and impatience. And Sergei read that as anger and rejection. It wasn't- it was
the exact opposite- but that's what it looked like."
"Close," said Halim. "Very very close." His eyes
brooded on Dorian. "He just wouldn't stop," he said. "He walked
around the house like a ghost- with his head and eye bandaged, like a
half-wrapped corpse- and when we talked to him he only looked back at us and
wouldn't say anything. We were at our wits' end- scared shitless he'd be the
next to go. And at night I had to listen to him crying beside me in the bed. I
wanted to hit him- I wanted to make him pull himself together- and I
couldn't do anything. What can you do, when someone you love just goes
on suffering and won't stop?"
"You
can get angry at them," Dorian suggested. "That keeps the pain away
from yourself. You can throw your heart away and refuse to feel anything. Only
then the dead emotions come back like ghosts some day-"
"Christ!" Halim started up violently and grabbed Dorian's
shirt. "How the hell did you find out about-- Did Sergei tell you? He
wouldn't dare--"
"He
didn't tell me anything," Dorian said. "I'm guessing.
Halim let
him go, turned and poured himself another vodka. "It's over now," he
said. "It all came out in the war and it got settled then. You can conjure
the dead men alive for awhile, Lord Gloria, but then they go back to their
graves."
"I'm
glad," Dorian said. "Did you ever get your heart back?"
"Where
were you brought up, for god's sake? Have you no decency?"
"None," said Dorian. "Sergei told me that ten years ago.
Neither do you, so I thought you wouldn't mind."
"I do
mind," Halim said.
"Then I
apologize. Let's change the subject."
"And
now you're going to play at being a gentleman."
"We can
play at something else if you like. I'm amenable."
"Oh no.
Let's go on rattling my family skeletons. I never get to do this with
outsiders. What else do you want to talk about? Ruza's little games? Takamatsu
and Gunmar? Szincza and his friends?"
"Szintarow..."
Dorian said thoughtfully. "He's the one I don't understand."
"He'll
be here tomorrow. You'll see then."
"Not
Szintarow himself. Szintarow and Majek. Why does Majek love him the way he
does? Didn't he ever suspect he wasn't his son?"
"If he
did, he never said anything. You don't argue with Majek's likes and dislikes.
We kept our thoughts to ourselves."
"But
you must have seen the resemblance. Sergei did, of course."
"Resemblance?"
"To his
father."
"What
are you talking about?"
"Jahn."
"What--"
Halim's face split in an unbelieving grin. "You think he's- Oh god. That's
lovely. That's beautiful." He started to laugh.
"But
that's why Ruza killed Jahn--" Dorian protested. Halim shook his head,
convulsed.
"Oh,
Lord Gloria, you're wonderful. I love you. Here, have some more vodka. God, I
haven't heard anything this funny in ages-"
"But
Sergei said they looked exactly alike--" Dorian was getting seriously
annoyed.
"A lot
alike. All the Acailles do. They're inbred. Comes from centuries of isolating
themselves in the mountains. Have a look at Araszyam some time and compare him
to Jean. They could be brothers."
Well, now
Halim mentioned it, it was true. But--
"Then
who's the father?"
"We
haven't the foggiest idea." Halim shrugged. "It wasn't Ruza, it can't
have been Jahn- the house was a day's journey from the city and surrounded by
guards. He never came there. So we just don't know. And if you want to keep on
enjoying Majek's hospitality, don't ask. He doesn't care, and neither should
you." He looked at Dorian and the corners of his mouth started to twitch
again.
"Uncle
Halim?" Gunmar stopped in the doorway. "I thought it was your voice.
Why are you here? Did Papa send for you?" He wandered over and kissed
Halim absently on each cheek. He had the unfocussed vagueness of someone on
drugs, but Dorian, adept at discerning the lineaments of gratified desire,
realized his manner was the result of a more natural high.
"Halim." Kinta, coming in with the same abstracted expression,
greeted him with a nod. Halim smiled.
"Haven't you got a kiss for your uncle?" He stood up.
Kinta
regarded him for a moment with what looked oddly like satisfaction, then smiled
his sudden sweet smile. This time there was an edge to it and Halim gave a
reflex frown. Kinta kissed him properly on each cheek, and once very improperly
on the mouth, and sat down by Gunmar with an arm around his shoulders. Dorian
observed with interest this unusual evidence of conjugal harmony, while Halim
gulped vodka in annoyance.
"I was
passing through and thought I'd look in on you. I didn't know Majek was here
and I didn't know you'd all started getting yourself attacked."
"They're crazy here in the West," Kinta shrugged. "It's
nothing to worry about."
"Naturally- only I'm leaving six of my men until the weekend, just
to be on the safe side."
"It's
not necessary-"
"Let's
hope not."
"-But
thanks anyway."
Halim's
eyebrows flicked. "I hear you're putting the screws on Takamatsu."
"I'm
doing what has to be done for his safety."
"Like
your father- you always have the best motives for everything, and you're always
right."
Kinta
stretched his long legs, again with that creamy smile of satisfaction. "I
could be like my uncle, and always wrong."
"Oh,
don't fight," Gunmar said, and shifted sideways to lean back against his
cousin's chest. "It's too nice a day." Kinta ran his fingers through
the fine blond hair, smiling down at him.
"Christ, Kinta," Halim said in disgust. "What's got into
you today?"
Kinta choked
on a sudden hiccup of laughter, going red. Gunmar put a hand over his face to
hide a smile. Halim watched their mirth in growing irritation. Dorian
half-sympathized. Kinta and Gunmar were behaving like a pair of giddy
adolescents but it was nice to see them so happy together.
There was a
heavy tread behind him and Koczi came into the room, addressing himself to
Halim.
"Majek
wants you," Halim translated. Dorian bounded to his feet, beaming.
"God," said Halim, looking from him to his nephews. "I'll be
outside. Maybe Araszyam can still talk sense."
Dorian,
unheeding, flew down the corridor.
"There
you are," Majek said, straightening up from the oven. "What were you
doing? Making friends with Halim?"
"Just
getting the preliminary death threats over with," Dorian said flippantly.
"He's got an odd way of ingratiating himself."
"He
always did," Majek said, lifting lids. "First he tries to dazzle and
if that doesn't work he tries to intimidate. After that he's rational. Help me
drain these."
Dorian held
the lid while Majek poured steaming water from the turnips and apples and
dumped them into a bowl.
"That's
a good way to get followers," Dorian noted, "but a terrible way to
make friends."
"Followers are what he wants," Majek said, putting the bowl in
the warming oven. "He's got the wrong temperament for a middle son. He
should have been the first, in someone else's family."
"How
can he be middle? He and Sergei came at the end."
"I
know. But he was always so much bigger and stronger that he seemed older.
Savijc was like the youngest child- and yes, I'll admit we spoiled him like
one." Majek rummaged in a drawer for a carving knife and whetstone.
"We let him read his books and have his own way and never called him to
account. 'Savijc is so delicate.' 'Savijc is so sensitive.' I suppose we
treated him like the girl-child our family can't have. That must be why he
turned out as he did."
Dorian
sighed. Argument was useless, but he felt compelled to try. "You think
he's girlish? He's one of the deadliest fighters I know. Wasn't he the one who
trained your son?"
"Yes,
of course. But he's still not a man." Majek was sharpening the knife with
whip-whip strokes, stopping to examine the blade periodically.
"He's
very much a man. I've slept with him and I know."
Majek made a
noise of exasperation. "It's like having a dragon in the house. You shouldn't
exist in the first place and I've no idea what you'll do next. Go get me the
carving board. It's down there."
Dorian
brought it from the cupboard next to the sink. It must be all those hormones
fizzing about him- Gunmar and Kinta, Sergei and Jean, himself and Ara- or
possibly just the vodka on top of an empty stomach. He felt giddy and daring
and randy as hell, and the most sensible thing to do seemed to be to nuzzle
Majek's neck from behind as he stood by the oven. Oh, lovely, lovely. His skin
was warm and the shaggy hair smelled of spice.
"Dorian," Majek said warningly.
"Mm-m-h?" He moved over to the earlobe and nibbled the edge.
There was an uncomfortable pricking sensation at the front of his neck. He
straightened up slowly, the point of the carving knife coming with him as Majek
turned around.
Dorian gazed
at him reproachfully along the blade, doing his best impersonation of a spaniel
refused a table-scrap. Majek smiled in appreciation and indicated the counter.
Dorian put the board down. The knife flicked in the direction of the stool and
Dorian went and sat on it, sighing deeply.
"You're
driving me crazy," he complained.
"Haven't you learned yet that you can't have things just because
you want them?"
"Of
course I can. What I want is mine by definition."
"You
and Halim alike- you think if you want it you're entitled to have it."
"Why do
you always insult me? You know I'm not at all like Halim."
"True.
Halim's learned to do without. Time you did too. Make yourself useful. Those
potatoes need mashing."
Dorian
fetched the pan and the potato masher and worked out some of his frustration
while Majek removed a stuffed loin of veal from its roasting pan and placed it
on the carving board.
"This
needs to cool. Those can go in the warming oven when you're done."
Dorian
sighed again. It was heaven to be in the same room as Majek, but his role of
saucier's apprentice was beginning to bore him.
Majek put
the carving board down on the counter, took the stool for himself and sipped at
a glass of vodka-and-something. "What you want is yours by definition, is
it? Meaning, if you want it you take it. Is that why Takamatsu called you a
thief?"
Dorian's
heart jumped. "Yes. I am a thief. I'm the greatest thief of my
generation."
Majek's
eyebrows rose. "You're joking, of course."
"I'm
completely serious."
"You
boast of being a criminal?"
"Naturally."
"What
do you steal?" Majek asked, unsmiling.
"Art."
"What?"
"Paintings. Statues. Porcelain. Tapestries."
Majek
blinked. "These are valuable goods?"
"Yes."
"And
then what do you do with them?"
"I sell
them back to their owners, sometimes, but mostly I keep them."
"Why?"
"They're beautiful. I want them with me always. Why else?"
Majek snorted
and went over to the carving board. "If you're going to steal, why not
take something useful?" he asked, picking up the bone-handled knife and
fork.
"I used
to take practical things for Kl- for NATO- microchips and blueprints and so on-
but it's so unromantic. It's a waste of my talents."
Majek's
mouth was expressive as he made the first incision. "Paintings. Good god.
It must be because your father died so young. He'd have straightened you out
otherwise."
"My
father encouraged me in my career. It's a family tradition. He got me the best
tutors, helped me with my first lessons in picking pockets--"
Majek turned
icicle-coloured eyes on him. "I don't take well to being mocked,
Dorian."
A shiver
went up Dorian's spine, surprising him. "I'm not mocking you," he
said as seriously as he knew how. "My family was ennobled in the 16th
century for plundering Spanish ships when we were at war with the Hapsburgs.
We've always been thieves. Really, it's an honourable tradition with us."
"You
English are insane. I'd heard it said but I'd never actually believed it. Get
me a platter."
Relieved to
find himself still in Majek's good graces- or at least not totally out of them-
Dorian complied.
"Did
your father know about--" Majek gave a vague nod in his direction.
"Yes.
He was homosexual himself, actually," Dorian said apologetically, in case
Majek took offence again. Majek frowned.
"Still,
he married and had children. Why don't you?"
"My
father wanted a son and thought that a good enough reason to make some woman
miserable by marrying her. I don't."
"You're
a fool. Having a son-" Majek was smiling as he carved the roast.
"Having a son is the greatest happiness a man can know." Dorian's
heart contracted in jealousy.
"I wish
I was your son," he said without thinking. "Then you'd love me."
"Be
grateful you're not. You wouldn't be alive now if you were. I wasn't always as
mild as I am now."
"But
it's now that I know you. Why not adopt me?" He edged a little closer.
"Wouldn't it be useful to have a clever thief in your family? You never
know when you'll need a lock opened. Or in your army, at least. Here's a
stranger just dying to be secured by you." He nudged meaningfully against
Majek's side.
Majek put
the knife and fork down and turned towards him, raising his arms. Dorian
stepped nearer in rapture as Majek's hands went round his neck and pressed hard
on his windpipe. The blue eyes were frozen in fury and the face would have
turned an army to stone. Dorian stood perfectly still as his breath was cut
off. He could do nothing but look into those terrible eyes, watching a moment
of infinity stretch out before him like a long black line. Dots swam in his
sight and the world became blood-tinged at the edges. Gazing still at Majek he
waited for the inevitable blackness.
The pressure
eased, letting him draw a gasping breath, but Majek's hands were still on his
throat.
"You're
a dirty little child," Majek informed him thickly, "playing your
dirty little games, and you understand nothing. The tie between man and lord is
sacred. When a man takes his oath to me and swears it with his body, he gives
me a part of his soul. It costs him something to give, and it costs me
something to take, and what happens between us is not a joke to be sniggered at
by some she-male perversion who'll open his arse to any man."
"Not any
man," Dorian said rawly. "I have my standards."
Majek loosed
his neck and slapped him so hard he nearly fell over. He was saved only by
Majek slapping him on the other side and so straightening him up again.
"Any
man," Majek repeated. "Do you think I don't know what you've been
doing since you came in here? You've gone through my household like a lion
through the sheep fold. I can see it in their faces. You've bedded with my
brother and his friend and my nephew and my son, and even Takamatsu though I'm
damned if I know how you managed it. Twenty years ago I'd have turned you into
the woman you behave like for so abusing my hospitality. Is there anyone you
haven't laid your hands on?"
"Gunmar, actually."
"Don't
lie to me. Gunmar had his catamite's eye on you from the minute you walked
in."
"I
don't say we wouldn't like to. I would and he would. But I gave my word not
to."
"To
whom?"
"Takamatsu."
"That
means nothing."
"It
means everything. My word binds me the way your oaths bind you. You don't
understand a gentleman's honour, of course, because you're not a gentleman.
You're a small-souled peasant who'd sneer at his own son. Gunmar's not a catamite
and never was. Not that it's any of your business, but he was a virgin until he
was a grown man, which has got to be more than you can say. And he's generous
and kind and loving and too damned good to be the son of a butcher like
yourself." Dorian blinked tears of rage. "I can't think why he
acknowledges you as his father. He's criminally good-natured. If it were me I'd
disinherit myself." He turned his back on Majek and headed for the door.
"Dorian."
He stopped,
fists balled.
"What?" he said, refusing to turn around.
"Five
minutes ago you were saying you wanted to be my son. You see what it would have
been like? Come back here."
Unwillingly,
Dorian turned around. Majek was smiling a little, ruefully, and Dorian's heart
melted. He frowned ferociously to cover it, but all that did was bring a hint
of tenderness to Majek's eyes and threaten to complete his downfall.
"What
am I to do with you, little brother? You're a stranger to my land, and you
insult our customs. Don't make me angry, Dorian. I had enough of that in the
past, and I don't enjoy it any more."
Dorian
fought to hold on to a shred of self-respect.
"You
insult me," he said, pretending offence. "If I'm a pervert and
a child by your standards, what do you think you are by mine?"
"You
told me. A butcher. I don't deny it. Come, Dorian. You have a man's courage in
that woman's nature of yours. Let's be friends again."
"We
can't be friends," he said bitterly. "I love you and it's killing
me."
Majek came
over and put an arm on his shoulder, shaking his head. "I'm sorry, little
brother."
Dorian
leaned against him in sudden pain, but even as his heart stabbed him a thought
came into his mind. He looked down at Majek through narrowed eyes.
"What
is it?" Majek asked, puzzled.
"Oh,
but you're good. I thought I was good at this, but you-- My god, next to you
I'm an amateur. And it's all natural, isn't it?
"I'm
not sure what you're talking about."
"The secret
of your success, General. You make men fall in love with you. No wonder they
line up to join your army. You do it by instinct. You don't know you're doing
it and they don't know it's being done. It takes a man like me to see how it
works."
Majek looked
at him a long moment, then turned back to his carving.
"It's
true, isn't it?" Dorian challenged him.
"Dorian, Dorian- ah well. Never mind." Majek was smiling to
himself. "It's natural to see things in a way that's familiar. You charm
men without intending to, and you think that's how all men behave. Go call
Miyagui. It's time we got dinner on the table."
"Right," said Dorian smoothly,
removing his apron. "At once." He was smiling too. Now he understood
the territory and had the measure of his opponent. Now he was ready to go to
war.
As he
started down the corridor, he almost bumped into Gunmar coming from the
washroom.
"Oh,
Lord Gloria," Gunmar said, and gave him an exuberant hug. "I've got
to thank you. You're so wonderful!"
"I try
to please," Dorian said. "What did I do?"
"Oh-
you know. Everything's so different when you're around. I'd never have had the
nerve to ask for myself if you hadn't suggested it, and I don't think he'd have
agreed if you hadn't- you know- with him. But he says- Kinta says-" Gunmar
lowered his voice, beaming like the noonday sun, "it's just so much better
with me than with Uncle Halim, there's no comparison."
"Oh," Dorian said in comprehension. "Today you are a man.
I'm glad to hear it. So- what do you think of it?"
"It's-
interesting. I think I still like it better when he does it to me, but it's
nice for a change. We're going to try it again tonight."
They'd come
to the livingroom.
"Where's Miyagui, by the way? I'm supposed to send him to
Majek."
"In the
front with Koczi. I'll go get him." He hastened off.
Kinta looked
up from his journal as Dorian came in and gave him a wide smile.
"Halim?" Dorian asked.
"Gone
to get his men. There was a call from the front desk."
"Oh,
good. Umm- I take it things are alright now?"
"Yes,
perfect. I can't believe how everything's changed, just in one day." A
trace of self-consciousness crept into his smile, stripping years off his
already young face so that he looked like a shy teenager. "Majek said
you're his luck but I think- I think you must be mine."
"Maybe
I'm a family possession. Do you believe in luck? I do, of course, but you're a
scientist..."
"I
never did before, but now- It's amazing, what can happen."
He stood up
as Gunmar came back into the room and put an arm around his shoulder. They went
out into the hallway. "When Takamatsu's cured and we're all back home-
there's this new angle Gruber has on inherited immunity. Jean's quite excited
by it, and we were thinking- well, never mind. I won't bore you. But really,
this is the first time in forever that I'm actually looking forward to the
future. So much seems possible, now that things are finally going my way."
"You
don't think Takamatsu will mind too much?" Gunmar asked. "He hasn't
come back yet."
"He'll
come round when he realizes we're doing it for his own good. He's a scientist
too, after all. He's just getting stubborn in his old age."
Jean and
Sergei were already seated in the diningroom, talking in low tones. Sergei had
a hand on Jean's thigh under the table. Their heads turned together at Kinta's
last words.
"Majek?" Jean asked, eyebrows flicking a little at Gunmar and
Kinta's affectionate pose.
"Takamatsu," Kinta said, dropping his arm.
"That's
not old age. He was always like that," Sergei said. "He'd have run
Ruza's life for him if Ruza had let him."
"The
tyranny of the servant," Jean said. "I never know if he gets it from
his Russian side or his Japanese one."
"Don't
talk like that," Gunmar said, looking unhappy as he took his seat.
"But
it's true," Kinta said. "We've always done what he wanted. We just
didn't notice."
Majek came
in with Ara and Miyagui. "Dorian, take the other end of the table. I don't
suppose we should expect Takamatsu, but he might turn up." Bowls were
passed around and wine was served. Araszyam gave Dorian a fleeting soft smile
as he filled his glass and Dorian gave him a small wink back. About to take a
sip, he saw the corners of Majek's mouth tighten as he registered the exchange.
Dorian sat up straighter and smiled at him directly, heart lifting in sudden
realization. They'd worked a love-charm this afternoon, was what they'd done.
He and Ara, Kinta and Gunmar, Jean and Sergei, working separately and
unknowingly, had together described three points of a triangle of love and
lust, and Majek was caught in the middle of it. It was only a matter of time
before the spell had its effect.
"To
your health, General," Dorian said, lifting his glass.
"To
yours, Lord Gloria," Majek responded. "But the General will be here
tomorrow. Save your toasts till then."
A deep male
voice boomed in the hallway. Sergei jerked upright. Halim burst through the
doors, a crowd of one who made the dining room seem suddenly too small.
"Good," he said. "I'm
starved. My loving little brother-" He enveloped Sergei in a huge hug that
left him blinking and frowning. "Jean-" He mussed Jean's hair, to his
obvious annoyance, and threw himself into the chair on Dorian's right.
"Food!" he said peremptorily to Araszyam.
The platter
of veal had come to rest by Dorian. He picked it up and placed it bodily on
Halim's plate.
"Have
some meat, Commander."
"I could
eat all that," Halim said, helping himself liberally.
"But
you won't," Jean said, whisking it adroitly out of his hand and passing it
across the table to Kinta.
"When
did you get in?" Sergei asked in a resigned voice. "And what are you
doing here?"
"This afternoon.
I thought I'd drop in on you on my way back to Amsterdam, but when I found out
Majek was here of course I stayed for dinner. I've missed your cooking,
brother." Halim was shovelling meat and vegetables into his mouth. It
looked like he could indeed have eaten the whole platter merely by way of
appetizer.
"Don't
talk with your mouth full," Majek said automatically. "And what are
your men doing in the suite?"
"Checking for bugs."
"It's
been checked already."
"Not
by G, it hasn't. If he says it's clean, then I'll believe it."
"G?!" Dorian said, startled.
"One
of my men. Impossible name- German- so we just call him G."
It couldn't
be, of course. G wouldn't moonlight. Klaus would have his skin if he did- but
the coincidence--
"What
does he look like? Not small and blond by any chance?"
"Not
by any chance."
"If
they break anything, it's your neck," Majek said.
"Don't
worry. They're pros."
"Why
are you going to Amsterdam?" Gunmar asked.
"Business. Don't ask."
"Drugs?" Sergei inquired neutrally. "Or guns?"
"Both,
of course."
"Don't
tease your brother. No-one's asking what your business is. We can't afford to
know."
"True.
Let's talk about something else. Who wants to bet me Takamatsu doesn't come
back tonight?"
"No
takers," Jean said.
"Or
tomorrow?"
"He'll
be back tomorrow," Kinta said with certainty.
"Where
would he go?" Gunmar asked.
"The
British Embassy, maybe. Or the American one- even better. Violation of his
rights under the Geneva Convention- he'd have a good case for refugee
status."
"Don't
be absurd," Kinta said. Gunmar was looking troubled.
"Cut it
out, Halim," Majek said.
"Face
facts, will you? You've threatened him with surgical treatment. That's going to
sound really nice if he tells anyone about it."
"No-one's threatened him with anything yet," Majek said.
"Kinta's made it a condition. Takamatsu's objected. It's for Szincza to
decide what happens in the end."
"He'll
decide your way, of course; and your way is to use force, and Takamatsu knows
it. Now he has a head start. You're slipping, brother. You should never have
let him out of the apartment."
Gunmar had
stopped eating entirely. "Takamatsu wouldn't go to outsiders. Or if he was
going to leave, he'd tell us first."
"So you
could stop him? Use your head, Gunmar. You don't have the same relationship you
did before. Your- cousin- changed all that this afternoon."
Gunmar went
green and Kinta's eyes blazed in fury. Sergei said in a cold voice,
"You're going to look a complete prat when he walks in tomorrow, but of
course you'll be long gone by then. Congratulations. You did what you came to
do: you've upset Gunmar and annoyed everyone else. Now will you just shut up
and eat?"
Halim turned
on him. "Why do you all stick your heads in the sa--"
Dorian,
reaching for the bowl of potatoes, bumped the Chateau Lafite Rothschild with
his elbow. Red wine flooded Halim's plate, dripped onto his trousers and
splashed his jacket. He jumped up, swearing and dabbing at the stains.
"Oh, I am
so sorry," Dorian said, rising and hastening to right the bottle.
"And a Lafite Rothschild '89 too," he added sadly.
"Fuck
the wine!" Halim bellowed. "My pants-"
"Salt," Dorian said briskly, seizing the cellar and twisting
the top off. "Pour it on the stains and it soaks them right up-" He
did so, unstintingly. Long practice at teasing Klaus told him precisely when to
duck to avoid the swing of Halim's fist. "Then you can launder them and
the marks come right ou-" He dodged neatly behind his chair as Halim
grabbed at him.
"Commander," a German voice said behind them.
"What
the hell do you want?!?" Halim whirled in the extremes of rage.
Dorian glanced over his shoulder and found himself beside a huge slab of a man,
easily two metres tall and wide in proportion, who dwarfed even the sizable
Halim. This was G? My God.
"We
found this," the giant said with no change of voice or expression, and
held out a hand half again the size of Dorian's.
"What the fuck is it, then?"
"One of
the new microscopic bugs." The craggy face remained mpassive despite the
increase in volume.
"Where,
dammit??" Halim's command style, Dorian meditated, wasn't that much
different from Klaus', but his men's reaction certainly was.
"In the
study telephone." Any of Klaus' men would
have been jelly by now, but this one didn't even
blink. Dorian, who'd never encountered a phlegmatic German before, was
intrigued to discover that the breed did indeed exist.
Halim,
somehow calmed by the lack of reaction, peered into the massive fist and picked
it out with a thumb and forefinger.
"Any
idea where it came from?"
"It's a
Swiss original, not a Spanish imitation. They cost, and you need to know the
right people."
"You've been through the rooms as
well?" Majek asked.
"Yes
sir. They're clean."
"You
keep an eye on the hotel's staff when they're here?" Halim asked his
brother.
"Every
minute."
"This
comes from before, then. Your men missed it." He smiled in satisfaction.
"You
haven't used the phone- Jean? Kinta? To talk to each other?"
They glanced
at each other and shook their heads.
"You
remember you said not to," Jean added.
"You
were here before I was."
"Well,
I haven't," Kinta said. "When I want to talk to Jean I do it
here."
"You
others? Gunmar? Have you mentioned Kinta's paper?"
He shook his
head. "I had a call from van der Hoek but we only talked about my
project."
Sergei said,
"The same. Calls to and from Dubois, calls to the hotel management.
Nothing to do with the paper."
"Then
we're in the clear, God willing," Majek said.
"You
can hope," Halim said. "But they're obviously after you. All of you-
take one of my men with you any time you go out. Next time they may up the
numbers."
"If
it's the same people," Jean pointed out. "And won't it just call
attention to ourselves if Kinta and I have a bodyguard with us?"
"All
the Circassians here will have bodyguards--"
"No-one
knows they're Circassian. They're registered under different nationalities and
names," Majek said. "Kinta's Estonian and Jean's Cypriot."
"Christ. Why?"
"Because there are no other Estonians or Cypriots here, of
course."
"Anyone
watching the lobby has seen them using the special elevator. They'll figure out
the connection."
"There
are other connections we might have," Jean said. "Any conference is a
hotbed of scandal. Let's give them the Cypriot scientist and the Circassian
antiquarian to talk about." He put a lascivious hand on Sergei's thigh,
and Sergei laughed soundlessly. "Maybe you two could camp it up a little
too," he suggested, grinning over at Kinta and Gunmar.
"Absolutely not," Majek snapped. "I won't have
Circassia's reputation compromised."
"How
much reputation do we have left, I wonder, with Dorian in and out of here every
day?" Sergei asked. Majek looked stunned.
"One
queer doesn't make this place a hotbed of homodom," Halim objected.
There was
the oddest little silence. Jean gave a small choking sound and Sergei's mouth
twitched at the corners. Gunmar started to shake with repressed giggles and
Kinta frowned ferociously, battling laughter.
"Alright, hw does," Halim said in disgust. "Go ahead and
flaunt it then. And bring your knives with you. You," he said to the
impassive German. "Take this to the hotel laundry and tell them I want it
back, spotless, in an hour." He shrugged off his jacket. "And send
for a change of clothes from the hotel." He looked at Dorian in annoyance
and sat down. The hovering Ara whisked his plate away and substituted another
and Halim proceeded to load it up again.
"And as
for Takamatsu-" he started.
"The
subject's closed," Majek said. "Mention his name again and I'll throw
you out of here myself. Understood?"
Halim smiled
at him cheerfully. "Absolutely, brother. We need another bottle of wine.
So when's Szincza arriving and who's he bringing with him?"
"He
lands tomorrow at eleven, and he's bringing whoever he pleases."
"Kostya
coming?"
"Of
course not. It's not safe."
"I
haven't seen him in years. Has he started talking again?"
"Some.
Not much. We're making progress, but it's slow." Majek frowned down at his
plate.
"We ran
tests on him," Kinta said. "His intelligence wasn't affected. It was
the shock that made him regress to early childhood."
"He can
talk when he wants to. He has long conversations with Koczi, evidently."
"Koczi!? Dear God."
"He's
got a simple nature," Jean said. "He's the same all the way through.
I think Kostya finds that reassuring."
"You'd
think he'd get bored." Halim poured himself more wine.
"We
hope he does. It might make him talk more to other people."
"He'd
better. He's- what?- fourteen now? He'll be a man soon."
"It'll
be a long time before he's a man," Majek said sombrely.
"Oh
come, brother. No need for the long face. You were saying the same thing about
Szincza when he was fully grown. Seventeen years old and 'He's still a
child.'"
"He
was," Sergei said. "You didn't have to put up with his
tantrums."
"Neither did you," Majek said. "He always behaved like a
lamb when you were around."
"Until
he found himself stuck with me on a mountain side and no way of getting home
for six months. Then he let loose."
"Really?"
Gunmar asked in interest. "What did you do?"
"Took
his clothes away."
"What?" Gunmar looked delighted.
"You're
joking," Majek said, appalled.
"I left
him his pants."
"And
his shoes, I hope."
"No."
"Savijc, it was October--!"
"And
very cold," Sergei agreed. "And it still took him every day of three
weeks to settle down and do what he was told. Give him his due, he was tougher
than I thought he was."
"If I'd
known what you were doing-" Majek began.
"You'd
have had fits too. That's why I didn't tell you." Sergei smiled at his
brother. "Ask him if he has any hard feelings."
"You
know he doesn't," Majek said.
"Of
course, there was the little matter of that fire barrage he and Araszyam laid
on for you at the start of the war," Jean remarked. "Maybe he got the
hard feelings out of his system that way."
Ara,
removing plates from the table, reddened in mortification.
"Then
there was the little matter of that knife you stuck into Szincza at the end of
the war," Sergei said. "Did that get them out of yours?"
Jean went
dull red in his turn. "Misunderstandings happen," he shrugged.
"That's what the amnesty was for."
"Misunderstanding, was it?" Halim mused. "Oh I see. A
little left-over jealousy. You thought like Lord Gloria here that Szincza was
Jahn's son. Silly mistake."
Jean choked
on a mouthful of wine and turned a brighter shade of crimson. Sergei, mouth
stiff with annoyance, pounded his back with unnecessary vigour. Dorian's ears
burned as he saw that the others, even Majek, were hiding smiles or silent
laughter.
"It was
a natural mistake," he protested, mortified. "I don't know why you
think it's so funny. It's not my fault if all the Acailles look alike."
"Oh-" Jean gasped. "You've got it backwards. It's you
non-Acailles who all look alike." He wiped his eyes.
"No we
don't-"
"Yes
you do. All blond and blue-eyed. How can you tell yourselves apart?"
That started
them laughing, and they adjoined to the living room in good humour. Dorian was half-way
through his coffee when Miyagui came in and spoke to Majek.
"Dorian, you have a phone call."
"Here?"
"I told
the front desk to reroute any calls here if you weren't in your room,"
Sergei said.
"Oh.
Well- thank you." He followed Miyagui into the study and took the
receiver. "Hello."
"Lord
Gloria." It was Klaus' voice. His heart jumped in surprise. "Would it
be possible to see you for a moment?"
"Why?"
"Official business. I am acting, as you may guess, under orders.
You needn't worry that I'll bring up
any personal matters." Klaus spoke as if to a stranger, save that Klaus
was rarely this polite to strangers. Certainly he'd never been so civil to him.
"I'm a
little busy just now--"
"At
your convenience, of course."
"Klaus,
look-"
"Lord
Gloria, you gave me to understand this morning that our-- relationship-- had
returned to its former footing. Please use my title."
"Are
you going to pretend it just never happened?"
"When
may I see you, Lord Gloria?"
"Well-
how long will it take?"
"No
more than twenty minutes, if that."
"Where
are you?"
"In the
café across from the hotel. If you would meet me here-"
"Can't
you just come to my room?"
There was a
pause. "I prefer not. My associations with the place are not
pleasant."
Dorian
cursed his tactlessness. Even Klaus had feelings. It was just hard to believe
at times.
"I'm
sorry. Alright, I'll be right over."
He went into
the hallway, seeing Halim by the front door with a pair of trousers and a shirt
over his arm, apparently giving orders to the man who'd delivered them. Dorian
went back to the living room and over to Majek.
"I have
to go out on business for about half an hour. I shouldn't be long."
"I'll
walk you to the door." Majek took his arm and Dorian's heart swelled with
happiness. But seeing his brother in the corridor, Majek turned into the study
instead and shut the door. Dorian had a presentiment. Majek's bleached mouth
was grim, and his eyes held a warning light.
"Dorian. A word before you go. I should be angry at you but as I
said, I had enough of that in the past. However, I'm not at all pleased."
"I'm
sorry about the wine. Really-"
"I'm
not talking about the wine. For that you have my thanks. Halim was being
impossible. I'm talking about Araszyam."
Dorian tried
to adopt a Circassian frame of mind. "Do you want me to apologize? I will,
if you want."
"Do you
feel you've done anything to apologize for?"
"Well,
no- but you do, so--"
"Then there's
no point in apologizing. I make allowances for the differences in our customs
but there's a limit. You shame me, Dorian. You've turned my house into a
brothel. My family are as they are- I accept that even if I don't approve- but
my men are my responsibility, and I can't have them corrupted. When you leave
tonight, don't come back."
The blood
drained from Dorian's face. He could feel it go, sinking down to his belly
where it churned in near-nausea. His lips moved but nothing would come out.
Majek indicated the door, motioning for Dorian to precede him.
Dorian shook
his head, not so much in refusal as disbelief. The catastrophe was too complete
and too sudden.
"Lord
Gloria," Majek said unmoved. "Go."
Tears,
totally unexpected, burst from his eyes and ran down his cheeks. He fell to his
knees and grasped Majek's hand in both his own.
"Please," he said, in a shaking voice- "please-" but
the rest was suffocated in his throat.
"That
won't help. Men have begged me for their lives in this fashion. It made no
difference to me then and it makes none now. Get up."
Dorian found
his voice. "It's exactly the same. If you send me away you'll kill me.
General- listen- how much longer will you be in T--? Two days? Three?"
"What
does it matter?"
"You'll
go back to Circassia and I'll never see you again. You've taken my heart and
given me nothing in return- only emptiness and the memory of a few hours in
your company. Where else could I find another man like you? There are no
men like you. Once I've seen the best, how can I be satisfied with anything
less?" The returning spate of words steadied him, and his heart returned
to a more normal pace. "And you're going to send me away- forbid me to see
you- Majek, it's only a few more days. Have mercy. Let me stay. Please. I'll be
good. I promise." He looked up at Majek with an expression of transparent
sincerity. Majek was frowning and the strange blue eyes under the knitted
eyebrows were full of turmoil. Dorian dropped his own eyes at once and went perfectly
still, scarcely daring to draw breath. 'I saw nothing-' he told himself,
'nothing-', so that no slightest trace of the singing victory in his heart
would show in his face. He hadn't won yet- not until Majek would admit what his
face had just betrayed. "Please," he said in a small, desperate
voice, the voice of one who knows he's lost and makes his final capitulation.
"Let me stay. I give you my word I'll behave."
"Your
word." Majek's tone was flat. "Your famous word as a gentleman."
"Yes," he said, and pressed his forehead to Majek's hand.
"Exactly that."
"And
what's that worth to me?"
"It's
all I've got. Does a man's honour mean nothing to you?"
"Much.
But I'm not sure what it means to you, if anything."
"It
kept me out of Gunmar's bed." Out of, not off of, he added mentally, in
case God was listening.
"A
major sacrifice, I'm sure."
In
desperation Dorian clung more tightly to his hand.
"You
have my word. If I break it, you can cut my heart out. And if you send me away
now, I'll cut it out for you. It's yours anyway. You might as well have it.
Please- please- let me stay."
There was a
stomach-churning silence. Then Majek said measuredly, "Dorian-- there have
been men who broke their promises to me in the past. It wasn't their hearts I
cut out. Do you understand me?"
"Yes
sir."
"You
promise you'll keep your hands off my men?"
"Yes."
"And my
family?"
"Yes."
"That
includes Jean too, you know." Dorian's heart bounded at the tone, but he
said meekly, "Yes, I know. He's your brother-in-law."
Majek gave a
small grunt. "You can have Takamatsu if you're so inclined. Get up."
Dorian obeyed. Majek looked at him under his eyebrows. "I'm still going to
punish you for Araszyam. You can come back tomorrow but I don't want to see any
more of you tonight. Now go."
"Yes
sir." It felt like the end of an interview with the headmaster. Dorian
went light-headed with relief. "Please- you won't be too hard on Ara, will
you? It wasn't his fault."
"He
knows better, but I'll take your influence into account. Good night, Lord
Gloria."
"Good-night, General."
He left and
went through the coded door. Halim was out in front of the lift having a
low-voiced conversation with G and the second soldier, a dark man with a
birthmark like a burn on one side of his face. Dorian turned his back to them.
Reaction was making him limp as jelly, and he hugged himself as a small shiver
ran up his spine. A damn' close-run thing, that. He'd played it well, though.
Majek was hooked- he knew it, he'd seen it in his eyes and felt it in his body:
hooked and thrashing desperately as he felt himself being reeled in. He'd have
to give him room- just enough not to make him break away entirely- Oh, it was
true, the dangerous men were the best after all. He hadn't expected him to
strike for freedom so early. Thank God for his instinctive responses. That had
been an instinctive response, what he'd done- he hadn't planned it- he couldn't
have done it as well if he'd planned it-
"You're
leaving us?" Halim asked.
Dorian
pulled himself together. "Some business. I won't be back tonight. Will I
see you tomorrow, Commander?"
"No,
we're out of here on an early plane."
"Bon
voyage, then."
"Farewell, Lord Gloria. My man will
accompany you down."
Dorian got
on the lift followed by the birth-marked soldier. and the doors closed on
Halim's smile and G's expressionless face. Dorian barely saw them. Majek was
his. It was only a matter of time. He'd played it well. Oh hell- he gave a
sudden explosive sigh. He hadn't been playing. He'd meant it all, every word of
it, and that fact shocked him rigid.
He crossed
the lobby in a daze. This affair was going to cost him. Well, had he ever
thought any different? A man like Majek- of course there was a price tag
attached. It just wasn't the one he'd thought it would be. He'd no objection to
paying with his body. That had never been beneath him, whatever it was the
other man wanted, like Klaus and his fists. This wasn't even the first time
that someone had wanted a piece of his soul. It was the first time he
thought he might actually have to give it and he didn't know if the idea
thrilled him or terrified him. To have no defences- to have both body and soul
no longer entirely his own, and likely to betray him when he least expected it-
there was no telling what might come of that. It might take him anywhere,
anywhere at all. It all depended on Majek, and he had no idea what things Majek
might want from him.
He walked
out into the night, heading for the cross-walk that would take him across the
street. Vaguely he was aware of the soldier still accompanying him.
"It's
alright," he said over his shoulder. "I'll be fine from now on."
"Don't
stop, Lord Gloria," a familiar voice said in his ear. "I'd like a
little conversation with you."
After one
lurch of his heart, Dorian walked calmly on. "Certainly, M. de Roussaye.
Forgive me for not recognizing you. I take it that's a wound from the
war?"
"From the
last battle, yes. No need to apologize. The light was very bad last time. Cross
here to the other side."
"Where
are we going?"
"Into
the restaurant behind that café."
"I've
had dinner, thank you."
"We're
not going to dine."
Dorian's
eyes ran ahead, searching for Klaus among the outdoor tables. Oh God- way over
in the corner, with a paper. Did he see him?"
"Here," Maaqa said as they came to the terrasse. "Walk
straight on through to the table at the back."
Dorian
turned his glance away lest Maaqa follow it, and concentrated on picking a way
amongst the tables as his mind calculated possibilities. The restaurant was as
full as the café in front, with few empty spots. Maaqa couldn't be intending to
kill him in public so he must be planning to get him into the back of the
building somehow where his presumed confederates were-
"Good
evening, messieurs," Klaus' voice said behind him, and Dorian whirled.
Klaus was standing between Maaqa and himself, empty-handed and smiling.
"M. de Roussaye, isn't it? The drug smuggler."
There was a
small pause. "Major von dem Eberbach," Maaqa responded. "The
spy."
"As
long as there's no mistake," Klaus said friendlily.
"You're
misinformed as to my name and occupation, monsieur. Otherwise, no
mistake."
"You're
name is de Roussaye, even if you call yourself Maaqa, and you're a drug dealer,
even if you call yourself a mercenary."
"I call
myself Marquère, and I call my occupation arms dealing, and I wonder what
concern NATO has with either."
"None
at all. My concern is with your companion, the thief Eroica."
"Your
colleague."
"Yes."
"You
can have him in a minute. I have a prior claim on his time."
"I
think you wanted to tell me something?" Dorian interposed encouragingly.
"Here is as good a place as any."
Maaqa's eyes
turned on him. Then the tightness went out of his body. "Merely to give
you my thanks for that piece of advice. You were right and you were wrong, but
it doesn't matter. We got him away and he's ours now." The narrow mouth
turned up in a brief smile like a snake's tongue flicking in and out. "And
the men have orders to shoot to kill-- any intruder, on sight. Remember to
mention that when you debrief." He bowed slightly in an old-school salute,
turned on his booted heel and was gone.
"What's
that about?" Klaus asked.
"He
thought I was working for you."
"And
where are these men?"
"They're stationed- oh." Dorian stopped.
"Where?"
"Well,
but- Klaus- I'm not working for you, am I?"
"Come
sit down," Klaus said, and took him over to a table at the side. "No,
you're not- yet. The Chief wants to know if you'll accept a job."
"Here?"
"Where
else?"
Dorian
looked down at the ground.
"Lord
Gloria- the ex-General of Circassia spent the day with the Minister of
Agriculture, the Minister of Finance and the Minister of Foreign Affairs, also
the secretary of the Finance Committee and the head of the Euro-Bank. His
brother has been frequenting an antiquarian bookstore in the Rue Vosages. His
other brother- on whom the police keep a close eye- arrived today from Algeria
with ten men, six of whom went to the hotel across the street this evening. And
this morning I found you in bed with his nephew's tutor. There are a lot of
prominent Circassians in T--, and they all seem to come to that hotel."
"Son," Dorian said.
"What?"
"His
son's tutor, not his nephew's. There was a mix-up."
"So
you're in with the family again. Then I may take it they're staying in the
penthouse suite whose elevator you take every day?"
"Some
of them are, yes," Dorian temporized. Halim, after all, was staying
elsewhere.
"But
the head of their clan is there, and naturally they all come to pay their
respects." Dorian's breath was getting tight. He'd never been able to
deceive Klaus for long about anything: the Major seemed able to read his mind.
And what Klaus didn't know, he guessed. "How's your search going for those
two scientists? Any luck?"
"My
what?"
"Don't
bother pretending. You're looking for Aouille and Acaille, like everyone else.
The difference is that you've got the connections-- and the means to use
them." Klaus gave a sour smile. "So, did Takamatsu tell you anything
useful?"
"I don't
know what you mean."
"Oh,
you don't." Klaus leaned back in his chair and smiled at him. "It was
a nice piece of acting. I believed it for all of ten minutes, until I realized
you could only have one reason for sleeping with a man like that."
"Yes. I
was horny."
"And
his connection to the centre of Circassian life here is purely
coincidental."
"Yes." Even he had to admit it didn't sound likely.
"Fine.
So the only question is, are you going to share your information with us or
not?"
"I
don't have any information."
"Of
course not. And why do Halim's men have orders to shoot to kill?"
"Someone tried to abduct Gunmar- the General's son- this morning,
and Sergei this afternoon."
Klaus
snorted. "Amateurs. Probably the Russians." He stretched out his long
legs, put his elbows on the arms of his chair and rested his chin on his
steepled hands. The brilliant green eyes were disconcerting.
"Have
you lined up another source for tonight, or have you time for me?"
"Klaus-
look-"
"Major.
We've broken up, remember?" Klaus was smiling again. Really, it was just
as disconcerting as Z always said it was, having Klaus be friendly.
"Major.
Yes, we've broken up. You seemed to accept that half an hour ago-"
"Talking on a phone that was probably bugged-" Klaus nodded.
"I
meant it. Klaus, we're not good for each other. We've done nothing but fight
for the last four years. It was a living nightmare, and it's over."
"Yes,
of course. Who are you with tonight?"
"No-one. No, damn it, it's none of your business."
"M.
Serge?"
"He has
a lover- some Cypriot he met here," Dorian said waspishly.
"Hmm.
What about his nephew, the cyberneticist?"
"Klaus,
I'm not going to talk about the Aouilles. If you want to talk, let's talk about
us."
"Let's.
You're free tonight, then. Come back to the pension."
"No.
Why won't you understand-"
"So it
is the nephew. Where are you meeting him?"
"Christ!" Dorian got up in fury, making to go, but Klaus' iron
hand pulled him down into the chair beside him.
"You're
not going," Klaus said through his teeth. "I won't let you go.
I-" He stopped, breathing hard.
They stared at each other. "I need you," Klaus said, as though his
fingernails were being ripped from him with the words. "There's no-one but
you- no-one--" He shuddered once, involuntarily. "Is this what you
wanted, Dorian? To see me on my knees in the dirt, begging?" His voice was
low and ragged, with an edge of rage. "Alright- here I am- begging. Come
back."
"Klaus," Dorian pleaded. He took both his hands and held them
between his own. "Klaus, don't- please-"
"For
seven years you've been the ground under my feet- the only thing I've been sure
of in a world where everything changes. When you left yesterday- it was as if gravity
had stopped- I'm falling in blackness-- Dorian-" He closed his eyes in
pain.
"You
should have told me this before," Dorian said. "If I'd known-- All
you ever did was yell at me and hit me. Klaus- I wasn't even your lover. I was
your fuck buddy- you only wanted me when you needed some release, and the rest
of the time--" He blinked tears. "You never said you loved me. You
haven't said it yet."
"I'm
not that kind of man, Dorian. I've never told anyone I loved them. I don't. You
have me crawling now- you've stripped me of my manhood- do you want me to tear
my heart out as well?"
"No," Dorian said. "No, it's not necessary." He
brought Klaus' right hand to his cheek. "Are we starting over again,
then?"
"Are
we?"
"Alright."
"Will
you come back with me- now-"
"Yes."
In a dream
Dorian walked by Klaus' side back through the twisty streets to the canal. He
could feel Klaus' eyes on him and the hunger in their look, and it made him so
lust-ridden he could barely walk.
"Say
something," he said at last. "Something ordinary."
After a
moment Klaus said, "How is M. Serge?"
"Very
well. Very happy."
"You've
renewed your- acquaintance, then?" It was meant to be neutral, but the
heat of jealousy was clear as the noonday sun.
"We had
a farewell tryst. It's over, Klaus. He's in love."
"But
you still spend all day in his suite."
"His
brother's suite. Sergei told Majek about that conspiracy- how I was involved-
and Majek gave me the entrée out of gratitude."
"How
fortunate." Klaus didn't sound happy. "At least it lets you pursue
your search for the fountain of youth."
"There
isn't one. Sergei told me what it is. The highland Circassians have an extra
chromosome and an extended lifespan. They think there's a connection. That's all."
"That's
it? That's what all the fuss is about?"
"Yes."
"So why
all the secrecy?"
"Because Majek thinks it will turn world opinion against Circassia.
He's afraid people will fight shy of Circassians as something- well, not quite
human."
Klaus snorted. "That's what you'd expect
of a peasant. He thinks everyone fears the unknown as much as he does. Strange,
I thought he was more intelligent than that."
"He's
very intelligent."
"But he
still doesn't understand how civilized men think. A minor difference like that
means nothing. Unless there's some practical application you don't know
about--"
"Gunmar
said there wasn't. He said it's not certain even that biological engineering
would work.
"So
it's all a mare's nest. There's nothing."
"Unless
someone could duplicate the chromosome artificially and find a way to make it
usable by non-Circassians. Some of them want to sell the discovery to a major
drug company--"
"It would
take years of research, even then. It's useless. This is what they're going to
say in their paper?"
"Apparently--"
"Then
after Friday there'll be no more mystery. I was right. I told you there was
nothing to this."
"Yes," said Dorian sadly, "you were."
"Good.
Then there's no need to continue this charade. Good night, Lord Gloria."
He turned back in the direction they'd come from. Dorian, thinking he'd gone
mad, stood still for nearly five seconds before he gathered the wits to go
after him.
"Klaus,
what on earth-"
"Lord
Gloria, I agree absolutely with your assessment of our relationship. We're not
good for each other. I'm an officer and an Eberbach and you are, unblushingly,
a thief and a whore. I should never have allowed you to tempt me into the
compromising situation you did. Now that I'm out of it, I can only thank God I
escaped with my honour and my career intact."
"But
you said-"
"I said
what I had to say to fulfill my mission. My mission's finished. Thanks for your
help." Klaus smiled at him pleasantly.
"You
were lying?" Dorian asked in disbelief.
"Of
course. Actually, I was a bit surprised you bought any of it."
"How
could you do this?" Dorian flamed at him. "You've got no heart- no
soul-"
"I have
something better- my duty as an officer of NATO. There are things, Lord Gloria,
that are more important than any one man's feelings. A pity you never
understood that." He pursed his lips, turned, and went his way.
Dorian felt
sick with rage. He leaned against the railings of the canal and shook so hard
he thought he would vomit. He hadn't felt this murderous hatred for anyone in
years, not since the day he'd opened his birthday present and found the fake
Giorgione. "I'll kill him," he thought, "I'll kill him--"
and saw himself, in clear slow motion, putting his knife between Klaus' ribs
and the red bubbles frothing on Klaus' lips as he died. He pushed himself off
the rail and started to walk, quickly and then more quickly, as if pursued by
fiends. "I'll kill him," he thought, weeping in rage, and imagined
his hands around Klaus' throat, squeezing until his face turned as black as his
heart, "I'll kill him-" He shuddered uncontrollably and bile rose in
his throat. Hastily he turned aside and was rackingly ill among the bushes. It
went on forever, and he jackknifed in agony long after he was empty. When it
was finally over he dabbed at his mouth with a handkerchief, discarded it, and
rose up. He was cold as a corpse but sweating icily, and he couldn't think
quite clearly. There was a cloud of darkness in the centre of his mind that his
thoughts limped around as if trying not to step on an open wound. He walked
because there was nothing else to do. He couldn't bear to be where there was
light or walls or people. The cold black water of the canal struck an obscure
terror into him but the idea of being on one of the boulevards nearly made him
sick again.
The exercise
seemed to help. The icy sweat dried as his blood moved, warming his cold hands
and feet- warming everything but the frozen blackness in his mind that stopped
him from thinking. Eventually he was aware of a small breeze fanning his
temples. The unwholesome dank of the canal had been replaced by the fresher
smell of moving water. He was by the river.
He came to
the promenade, empty and unpeopled by night. His eye followed the line of
white-globed lamps to its end. Beyond was only the gap of the river's mouth as
it flowed out to sea, and at sight of that nothingness- black water flowing
into black sky- his strength deserted him. He sat down on a bench and put his
head in his hands.
Klaus, he
thought, Klaus, and the hot tears spilled over again. He tried to call his
anger back but it wouldn't come. All there was was the awful hurting pain of
Klaus' betrayal, filling the world and crowding the stars overhead. He moaned
aloud, startling himself. He sat up, letting the tears run unchecked down his
face. The dark river flowed before his eyes, silent and purposeful, and he
watched it go its own way, feeling as if his heart's blood was flowing out with
it. Death must be like this- cold and dark and silent: an end to everything--
Maybe a relief, after all, because in that darkness there might be an end to
pain. No more wanting and not having, no more hurting, no more anything...
"Lord
Gloria."
He turned
his head slowly and unwillingly. He didn't want to have his grief interrupted
by outside voices, but the voice was there, and it was Takamatsu's, and it
sounded very much as if it didn't want to be interrupted by him.
At first he
literally didn't see him. Then Takamatsu rose from the darkness of the next
bench and came over to the circle of light where Dorian was sitting. The
lamplight bleached his already pale skin and cast dark shadows in the hollows
under his eyes. He stood unspeaking, looking down at Dorian.
"Disaster strikes," he commented in a flat voice, and sat
down. Dorian made to speak, but sobbed instead. He dug about for a
handkerchief, in vain, of course. Takamatsu handed him one from his breast pocket
and Dorian mopped his face, biting at the cambric when the unwanted sobs burst
forth.
"What
happened?" Takamatsu asked in the same uninterested tone.
"Majek?" Dorian shook his head, knowing he couldn't trust his
voice.
"Sergei?"
"Um-umh." He tried to answer. "K- K-" A Niagara
poured from his eyes, and he had to make use of the handkerchief again.
"Klaus?"
Dorian
nodded. "He- he-" No, dammit, he would speak. "He s-said
he w-wanted to get- back- together," he gulped desperately, "b-but he-
he was l-lying. He w-wanted to find out- about the paper-"
"Mmmm.
And you told him?"
Dorian
nodded again. "About the e-extra chromosome, and how- how maybe it- makes
them live longer- B-but you can't do anything with it- and when he found out
about that, he- he-"
"He
said he had no further need of your company."
Dorian's
face twisted. "Mph," he said to the handkerchief.
"Well
done, Lord Gloria."
Dorian cried
out in pain and protest.
"I'm
not being sarcastic." Takamatsu sounded weary. "That was exactly the
right thing to say. How did he react to the information?"
"He
said it was all n-nothing- a mare's nest. He was p-pleased about being
right."
"Nice
if he'd pass the information along to the other agencies. Any chance?"
"No," Dorian said dully. "None."
"Oh.
Well, you know him."
"I
thought I knew him." Dorian's mouth was trembling again. "I know how
twisted he is- but I never d-dreamed h-he'd d-do..." His handkerchief was
entirely sodden by now, but he wiped his eyes with it anyway.
"I
know," Takamatsu said as if it didn't matter much. "You never
dream..."
"Majek
will be angry at me," Dorian said in sudden realization. "And he's
already angry." He looked at the flowing water as the implications of this
new disaster sank in.
"I
doubt he'll be angry. Tell him exactly what you told the Major and see if he
isn't pleased."
"But
this is the secret everyone's been guarding with their lives."
"Oh
come," Takamatsu said contemptuously. "Do you think so?"
"It
isn't? You mean it isn't true?"
"It's
true- as far as it goes."
"You
mean there's more?"
"Of
course."
"For
God's sake, what is it?"
"Why
should I tell you? So you can use it to buy the Major back? No- no wait."
He put a hand on Dorian's arm almost before he had time to recoil. "I
shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry." He bit his lip, eyes shadowed.
"It's
alright," Dorian said after a moment. "You haven't been having a
wonderful day either."
"Oh
God," Takamatsu sighed deeply. "No. And I dread going home
tonight."
"They're not expecting you. Jean said you wouldn't come back."
"Jean," Takamatsu said with unexpected ferocity. "Damn
Jean to hell and back."
"Why?" Dorian said, surprised. "I like Jean. What'd he
do?"
"So do
I like Jean. He's very likable. But I wish to God Sergei had never met him. He
doesn't make trouble, but trouble follows him. Like his studies of longevity-
so normal and boring- but now Samh' Kinta has this damned idea of-" He
fell abruptly silent.
"Look," said Dorian carefully, "I'm not trying to
pry--"
"Oh
no?"
"When
you say 'this idea', you're not talking about the paper, are you? You're too
angry for that. It's got something to do with the treatment, right?"
Takamatsu
turned away. "I'm not going to betray Samh' Kinta-"
"-even
though he's betrayed you."
"I
didn't say that!"
"But
that's how it feels, isn't it?"
There was
silence. "Hell, why not tell you?" Takamatsu said tiredly. "This
illness of mine- you have it too. It's called life. A terminal degenerative
disease. We grow old and we die."
Dorian
waited for him to continue, and when he didn't, murmured, "And the
treatment?"
"They've extracted the chromosome from tissue and duplicated it.
They want to try chromosomal surgery on me to see if it can be made active in a
non-Circassians and have the same effect."
"You
mean, make you live longer? Live as long as they do?"
Takamatsu
hesitated. "Yes," he said finally.
"But
that's wonderful! Wonderful! Why don't you want-"
Takamatsu
gazed out over the river. "The chromosome extends life somehow- perhaps by
slowing down the aging process, perhaps by regenerating tissue. But the how is
still conjectural. All they really know is that it does extend life."
"Well,
what's wrong with that?"
"Suppose that's all it does- make us live longer. Suppose it
doesn't stop the aging process. Suppose that's the function of some other
enzyme or substance they have and we don't. We'd have a protracted life but
keep on aging through it- deaf, blind, toothless, rheumatic,
incontinent..." He turned to Dorian. "Do you know the myth of Aurora
and Tithonous? Aurora begged Zeus to grant her husband eternal life-"
"But
forgot to ask for eternal youth." Dorian felt cold. "He grew into a
wizened stick of a man, shrilling and piping, and at last Zeus took pity on him
and turned him into a grasshopper."
"Precisely."
Dorian
chewed his lip. "But it's worth the risk, surely? Just the possibility of
an extended youth-"
"It
wouldn't be youth for me. I've enjoyed my vices for fifty years and I was badly
hurt in the last war. For me it would be a prolonged misery of aching joints
and aching bones and crumbling teeth and failing eyes... No, I don't think
so."
"You've
said all that to him?"
"I've
said all that. I've said more. I've told him he'd make me a prisoner inside my
own body. I thought that would move him, but no. He refuses to believe it won't
work exactly as he wants it to."
"And
the others- Gunmar?"
"Samh'
Gunmar thinks, quite happily, that if I don't like it I can always kill myself.
He's promised to help: should I, for instance, find myself with Alzheimer's
Syndrome."
"Oh.
Could you?"
"Probably. My mother always said her father was senile. Think of
that- an eternity of fear and confusion. Not knowing who I am, not knowing who
the people around me are-" He shuddered. "No."
"Don't
you think you're being too negative about this? I'd take that treatment in a
minute. Why assume it won't work exactly as it does for them? You're not young,
alright- but you're in healthy middle age and you could go on being that for
another sixty years."
"Optimists," Takamatsu growled. "Why am I surrounded by
happy fools?"
"Pessimists," Dorian countered. "Why worry about things
before they happen? Our way makes life much easier. Yes, you could turn into a
vegetable. Equally, you could win the Nobel Prize when you're ninety. Prepare
for the worst and expect the best."
"I
prepare for the worst. If I become lost, can you really see Samh' Gunmar giving
me a fatal injection? Can you see Samh' Kinta allowing it? No- he thinks of me
as his property. He won't let me go."
"He
loves you and he's terrified of losing you. That's all. Besides, it doesn't
happen overnight. You'd have time to make your own preparations."
"Yes." Takamatsu looked over the river. "But I wonder if
I'd have the courage for it, in the end."
Dorian
watched him in exasperation and pity. His own spirits had taken an amazing upswing.
Really, the world was a wonderful place in spite of the bumpy bits. This Slavic
melancholy of Takamatsu's was so- so unnecessary.
"Doctor- Have you had dinner?"
"No.
I'm not hungry."
"Come
have something with me."
"No
thank you."
"Well,
come have me, then."
"Lord
Gloria-"
"I've
been lied to and abandoned by the man I trusted. If I go to bed alone I'll lie
awake weeping all night. Come and console me, Doctor."
"This
is absurd-" Takamatsu's eyes were annoyed. "It's still early evening.
Go back to Majek."
"I
can't. He's angry with me about something-"
"Someone, that means."
"Ara-whatsits, actually."
"Oh
God. You didn't seduce one of his men?"
"I
wouldn't call it seduction, exactly-"
"But
Majek would. And you came out of it with a whole skin?"
"I'm a
bit flayed about the soul. Majek tore me off a strip and told me not to come
back till tomorrow. So I'm free, and I wouldn't mind seeing what you're like
when I'm sober and awake."
"No.
Drowning one's grief in sex is as bad as drowning it in alcohol. When the spell
wears off it's twice as bad. I'll have to go back to the hotel some time, and
it might as well be now."
"If you
like. Halim's there."
Takamatsu
stiffened.
"Why?"
"He
happened to be in town and dropped by. He's leaving some men as guards."
"Oh."
"Dinner," Dorian said coaxingly. "A light omelette and
some crusty bread at a café, a little wine, maybe a shower after at my place, a
bit of a snuggle, and early to bed to prepare for the General's visit
tomorrow." His hand drifted across Takamatsu's thigh. "Why not?"
"Samh'
Gunmar and Samh' Kinta are expecting me-"
"Gunmar
and Kinta discovered the joys of switching roles this afternoon and intend to
pursue their investigations into it this evening. I fancy they've other things
to think about."
"I
can't believe that."
"Gunmar
told me himself. And Kinta near as dammit made a dirty joke about it."
"God.
You're a terrible man, Lord Gloria. I wonder--"
"What?"
"Nothing.
Thank you for your offer. I think I'll accept."
Much later,
having washed off in the shower only to become satisfyingly messy again between
the sheets, Dorian lay, drowsy and satiated and content, among the plump
pillows of his palatial bed. Takamatsu was beside him, sleeping soundly and,
rather to his surprise, quietly: satiated too, and as content as Dorian could
contrive to make him. He'd be asleep himself in a moment, but was fighting the
instinct in order to savour to the full his present satisfaction. In spite of
all the upheavals of the day he knew himself happy. There was a fountain
of youth, or almost. At any rate, there was a way to slow the inexorable march
towards oblivion and decrepitude, and that was enough for him. He would have
his youth and health for decades. He knew it. And he would have Majek. He knew
that too. Happily he recalled the look in Majek's eyes this afternoon, that
response in his skin to Dorian's touch. Oh yes- he was closing in on his prey.
Now to press him a little more closely- just a little- subtly but continuously,
until the needs of Majek's body would at last overrule the dictates of his
head. The half-acknowledged desire this afternoon would soon burst forth into
flame. And when it did- well, he might go up in flames with it, immolating
himself like a moth on a candle. It would be- different, certainly.
He yawned
and turned on his side, burrowing under the duvet until he found Takamatsu's
body and its welcome warmth. He wrapped himself around it so as not to be
dislodged by any somnolent blanket-grabbing and also, incidentally, so the
Doctor wouldn't be alone if he woke later in the night. Dorian disliked the
idea of anyone lying awake and unconsoled in the same bed as himself. Poor
Takamatsu- handed a prize on a plate and not able to accept it. He reflected,
not for the first time, on the unequal division of the world's luck that gave
the Earl of Red Gloria so much more than his fair share; and so musing, fell
asleep.