There was an armed guard downstairs in
front of the penthouse elevator, a tall black man who spoke French with a
Gabonese accent. He passed Takamatsu but refused to let him vouch for Dorian.
To the doctor's chagrin the man insisted on making enquiries over a
walkie-talkie before letting them go up. When the elevator doors opened they
found themselves facing the barrel of another gun and a pair of suspicious blue
eyes. The accent this time was Polish.
"Halim always overdoes things,"
Takamatsu informed Halim's man, and turned to punch in the code. Before he was
finished the door burst open from inside. Gunmar came through it like a
whirlwind and threw himself into the doctor's arms.
"Takamatsu-" His voice was shaky,
and he buried his face in the older man's neck.
"Samh' Gunmar- what is it? What's
happened?"
"Ohh- nothing." He looked up,
trying for a cheerful smile, but the strain showed and his eyes shone
suspiciously. "I'm glad you're back. They said you wouldn't come home last
night but I thought you might and then you didn't-"
"I'm sorry, Samhet. I should have
called, I suppose. You know you needn't worry about me."
"I can't help it," Gunmar said
with an edge of desolation. "After yesterday, with those men-"
"Oh, they'd hardly bother with
me," Takamatsu assured him, putting on a smile in his turn. "I'm much
too small a fish. I met Lord Gloria and had a nice dinner and now here I
am."
"Yes." Gunmar still hadn't let
him go.
"Can we come in?" Dorian asked.
"I can smell breakfast, and I'm starved."
"Oh, yes. Of course. Thank you for
looking after him, Lord Gloria." He turned and took them into the suite.
Dorian's eloquent eye tried to catch Takamatsu's, but the doctor's gaze was on
Gunmar and he was frowning as if in pain.
The breakfast table was laden with breads
and smoked meats and cheese, pots of jam and pots of butter, and strong hot
coffee in thick silver coffee pots. Jean was sitting in Takamatsu's chair, deep
in discussion with Kinta, and Sergei's chair was pulled closer to Majek's as
they conferred together. All the heads looked up as they entered the room.
"Good morning," Majek said as if
it were a day like any other. "There's plenty left. Go ahead." He was
wearing a royal blue dressing gown that deepened his eyes to the colour of
periwinkles. Dorian's groin tightened at the sight of his love in deshabille.
Gunmar steered Takamatsu to the two empty
chairs beside Sergei, still with a grip on his arm, and Dorian took the seat at
the end of the table. Takamatsu didn't look at Majek but poured himself a cup
of coffee. Dorian followed suit, diluting it with hot milk, and waited for the
caffeine rush to dissolve the cobwebs in his head. Majek and Sergei were
speaking in Circassian, and Jean and Kinta, deep in a scientific discussion,
might as well have been. Dorian let the voices fade around him and sat watching
Majek dreamily.
Movement caught his eye as Jean got up and
left the table. Kinta looked over at their side.
"Takamatsu."
Takamatsu looked up from the tablecloth.
"Samhet?"
Kinta chewed his lip for a moment.
"Szincza will be here around twelve," he said at last.
"Really, Samhet? That's
interesting."
"Have you- have you changed your
mind?"
"No, Samhet. I'm sorry."
Kinta's face creased in distress. Gunmar
gave him a warning look, and he turned away, reaching for the coffee pot.
Takamatsu helped himself to coldcuts. Jean came back in jacket and tie.
"Kinta, aren't you coming?"
"Just finishing. You go ahead."
Jean glanced at him briefly. "I'll see
you at noon," he said to Majek. Sergei got up and went with him into the
hallway, and Majek, turning, met Dorian's eye. Dorian smiled at him hopefully
and Majek gave him a measured look back.
"Have you plans for this morning, Lord
Gloria?"
So he was still in disgrace.
"None particularly. I'm at your
disposal, General. Is there anything I can do?"
"Mh. You can give me a hand with the
preparations here. The men will be in and out all day and I need an errand
boy."
Majek was rubbing it in a bit but Dorian
wasn't about to stickle. "I'd be delighted."
Sergei came back and resumed his Circassian
conference with Majek. They'd finished breakfast and were on their second cups
of coffee. Kinta too was dawdling, eyes on Takamatsu, but the Doctor was eating
bread and meat as if it were a tricky operation requiring his full attention.
"It's nearly nine," Gunmar
mentioned at last.
"Alright," Kinta said, reluctant
and annoyed, and got up. "I'll see you all at noon." He hesitated,
then came to the other side of the table and put both arms around Takamatsu
from behind, burying his face in the top of his head. He let go as abruptly as
he'd begun and strode out of the room.
Sergei and Majek watched him in
astonishment. Dorian looked at Takamatsu. He'd put his sandwich down and his
eyes were screwed shut.
"Taka-" Gunmar began, but
Takamatsu suddenly pushed his chair back and left the room in his own turn.
Gunmar turned to his father with anger and misery in his face, but Sergei
forestalled him.
"Go after him. This may be it." Gunmar
stared a moment, then went at the double.
"It?" Majek asked.
Sergei said, "If he's to be- I won't
say persuaded: that may not be possible- but softened up, this is probably the
best chance for it and Gunmar the best person to do it. Takamatsu's not used to
saying no to him."
"Gunmar's surely been at him for a
while. You think it's different now?"
"Kinta's been at him more, trying to
wear him down with arguments. I think Gunmar weeping on his shoulder may be
more effective. He's got to be near breaking-point."
"Mmh. How was he when you met him this
morning?" Majek asked Dorian.
"I didn't. I ran into him last
night."
"How was he then?"
"Unhappy. Pretty close to rock-bottom,
as Sergei says. He was down by the river and looking ready to jump in, so I got
some dinner into him and took him back to my place."
"Nice of you," Sergei murmured.
"I was unhappy myself and glad of the
company," Dorian said with a touch of annoyance. "I wasn't closing my
eyes and thinking of England. I can't think why you carry on like this about
Takamatsu and me."
"What?" Majek asked. "You
mean- Damn it, Dorian, I meant that as a joke!"
"Yes, but the state he was in was past
joking. I know two ways to take a man's mind off his troubles and I chose the
one that doesn't leave you with a hangover. I'm sorry if you're offended, but
we westerners have our own customs."
Majek grimaced. "I suppose it's not
the first time I've used a totally unfamiliar weapon. I can only hope that it
doesn't blow up in my face." He regarded Dorian under his eyebrows.
"Araszyam told me that it was he who solicited you, not the other way
around. Why didn't you tell me?"
"Heavens, why would I? I wanted it as
much as he did."
"God. How can anyone be so honourable
and so shameless in the same breath? Does he make sense to you?" he
asked his brother.
"On alternate Thursdays when the
wind's in the west. Dorian's like an earthquake. It's hard to keep your footing
when he's happening but it's exhilarating to try."
"You're more used to it than I am. I
just get sea-sick. Can you keep him out of mischief for the next ten minutes
while I get dressed?"
"Trust me." Sergei smiled at his
brother.
"I'm afraid to." Majek frowned at
them both and left.
Sergei gave a contented sigh and leaned
back in his chair. Dorian in his turn was treated to a smile.
"Well, m'ami. You've turned our
household upside down and no mistake."
"It's over. I told Majek I'd be good.
Now I forget about diversions and concentrate on the main goal."
"You've your work cut out for you.
Majek sees nothing else when his son's around. I suppose I don't have to warn
you not to try anything with Szincza?"
"I'm not likely to be tempted to. And
anyway, I promised Majek. I mean, I gave him my word I'd leave his family
alone."
"Oh. Good."
"Don't you believe me?"
"I believe you. An Englishman's word
is his bond and all that." He poured himself more coffee.
"What is it? Why are you angry?"
"I'm not." He gave a rueful
smile. "That was nice, the other day. We were talking about it last night.
Jean's rather taken to you, you know. I'm just indulging a little regret that
it's going to be a one-time experience."
"Oh." That was a surprise.
"I'll join you in the regret. I don't suppose... No, I don't suppose. It's
a pity, though."
"Can't you be tempted to break your
word?"
"I can be tempted, but I really
wish you wouldn't. I don't want to do anything to queer my chances of getting
Majek."
"Seriously, Dorian, how do you rate
them?"
"Very good. He's responding to me. Now
he only has to admit it."
"He'll have other things to think
about today. Szincza, Kinta, and all this kerfuffle with Takamatsu."
"Do you really think Szincza will go
along with Majek? Why wouldn't he just put the screws on Kinta? It's much
simpler."
"That's what it isn't. Kinta is his
family and Takamatsu is a servant. In Circassia that still makes a
difference."
"And anyway, Kinta's his friend."
"Friend? Not exactly. They've reached
a modus vivendi, perhaps. It involves not seeing too much of each other and
ignoring the past. Like Halim and me."
"Oh. Is that how you manage? I'd
wondered."
"We were always too close. It's hard
to explain to other people what it's like, having another self in another body.
It took a while to realize it's not natural. Now we're doing what we should
have done thirty years ago. And who knows? Maybe in another thirty years we can
be friends again."
"At least you have that much time to
play with."
"Yes. The advantages of our
chromosome."
"Mh. Takamatsu told me what the
treatment is."
"Oh really." Sergei eyed him
narrowly.
"And if I were him, I'd be on my knees
begging for it. I sort of understand his concerns, but to pass up a chance like
this... I think you must be right about him after all. His heart's with
Ruza."
"Mm. And just incidentally, why aren't
you on your knees begging?"
"I was going to have a word with Jean
and Kinta about it- maybe after Friday. Is there any reason why they'd refuse
me the treatment?"
"None I can think of. They both like
you. I'll add my request. It'd be nice to have you around for good. But you
know Takamatsu's right. There's no proof at all that it works on
non-Circassians."
"That's why you need guinea pigs. I'm
delighted to volunteer."
"Good." Sergei smiled. "So
some day we might get together again after all."
Dorian smiled back with a buoyant heart.
The future spread out before him in that moment like a vast plain continuing
for decades. Time- he'd have all the time in the world now. A future of
beautiful men and beautiful art and the possession of his heart's desire. And
at that moment his heart's desire itself walked back into the room in very
prosaic blue jeans and t-shirt. Dorian had five seconds' leisure to appreciate
the form-fitting ensemble before Majek swept him off and put him to work.
Majek was in whirlwind mode, elated and
energetic, and his enthusiasm carried Dorian along with him willy-nilly into
the inevitable kitchen. Dorian's notion of 'errands' had vaguely involved
visits to florists and caterers, but instead he found himself labouring through
the morning as general dogsbody while Majek put together a lavish Circassian
feast. Who would have thought, Dorian pondered as he scraped his umpteenth
carrot, that there were so many ways of serving root vegetables? At least it
wasn't haute cuisine. The idea of Majek creating a grand French dinner didn't
bear thinking of. At the end of three hours he was grateful to be allowed to
sink into a chair with a very dry martini and rest his feet while Majek went
off to get ready.
The living room began to fill up with the
family, all in their best clothes and looking, Dorian thought, just a little on
edge. Kinta and Jean came back from the morning session and vanished in the
direction of their rooms to change. Takamatsu came in with Sergei, both in
silence, to be followed by Gunmar looking both hopeful and resolute. Koczi
arrived to stand at attention by the French doors in a spotless uniform. Even
his hair had been combed for the occasion. Finally Majek appeared wearing a
high-collared Circassian tunic, breeches and boots. Dorian had never seen him
in native dress before and his heart did flip-flops. But Majek paid no
attention to him or anyone. A small smile on his face, he sat with his eyes
fixed on the hallway.
Shortly there was the sound of the door
opening, and boots in the hallway. They all rose to their feet as what seemed a
cortege swept into the room. Afterwards Dorian ascertained that there had been
only four men all told, but the first of them to enter was General Szintarow
and after that it was impossible to have eyes for anyone else. Like his father,
the General had an unthinking ability to become the focus of attention without
even trying. Not that the General wasn't trying, Dorian thought,
striving to keep a calm head in the face of the barbaric and beautiful figure
before him. Long unbound hair, thick and black, waved well below his shoulders.
His jacket and the breeches tucked into black leather boots were an uncivilized
bright red. Both the jacket and the white cambric shirt beneath it were worn
open to mid-breast, revealing an expanse of naked brownish skin that Dorian had
difficulty keeping his eyes off of.
He watched in hopeless jealousy as father
and son embraced energetically, arms around each other and beaming like the
sun. Majek kissed Szintarow twice and held him at arm's length while the
younger man said something laughingly in Circassian, and then hugged and kissed
him again. They might have been separated for years instead of a matter of
three or four days. 'Alright,' Dorian thought in furious determination,
'alright- you can have that, but the rest is mine.'
Still, those flat hard pectorals peeping
through the red and white kept drawing his eye like a magnet. This must be how
other men felt about peering down a woman's decolletage. Dorian had never seen
anything at once so masculine and so seductive as the General's ensemble, but
his reaction to it was still a little puzzling. The male chest was, God knew,
familiar enough territory to him. What made this one so particularly erotic? He
looked closer, trying not to stare, and realized finally that the jacket and
trousers belonged to an actual uniform- right material, right tailoring, even
the right flaps and goring on the pockets. But put in conjunction with that
plunging neckline and glimpse of firm male flesh-- Dorian swallowed hard. He
detested the man but in that costume he'd die to have his hands on him. Could
the General be trying his wiles on the susceptible? It didn't seem likely. No,
there had to be another message contained here. The bold colour, the naked
chest, the travesty of a uniform: all were a slap at European expectations. The
General was saying, 'I'll dress like a Westerner, but first and foremost I'm
Circassian. I understand your customs but I use them my own way.' Dorian's eyes
narrowed. This was going to be a formidable opponent.
Majek at last let him go and Szintarow
turned to greet his relatives, starting with Sergei. Dorian noted their
reactions with mounting irritation. Sergei had a glow of tenderness in his face
that he probably didn't even know was there. Gunmar was spanielling around his
cousin's feet, clearly in raptures. And even Kinta- even Kinta had the kind of
look the Polar Bear had sometimes given Dorian, a half-regret that
circumstances didn't allow them to be anything more than unwilling allies. God,
was this man able to charm everyone? as he watched Jean grinning and shaking
hands-- and what was that story about a knife anyway? At least he hadn't
made the slightest dent in Takamatsu: the Doctor was answering the General's
energetic greeting with an elaborate politeness whose coolness bordered on the
insulting. Dorian mentally gave him a kiss. And now the man was turning to him-
Dorian arranged his face into gracious lines- and Majek was introducing them.
Szintarow took his hand in a warm, strong grip. Black eyes, friendly and
curious and- yes, damn it- authoritative as well, looked him over.
"Lord Gloria? This is an honour,"
he said in accented but functional English. "I have never met an English
nobleman."
"Merely an earl," Dorian said
modestly. "Top of the middle aristocracy. I'm nothing terribly
special." Several light years beyond 'aristocrats' who were top of the
sheep-raising peasantry, of course: but only another Englishman would realize
that.
"My father says different," the
General smiled, "and he knows a thing or two about men. I look forward to
a closer acquaintance." He pressed Dorian's hand, gazing straight into his
eyes, and then turned with a word for Koczi, leaving Dorian's head whirling.
'Odd's my little life--' he thought, not so sure about the intent behind that
uniform after all. 'I hope that doesn't mean what I think it does.' Well, he'd
cross that bridge when he came to it- if he came to it- and meantime, he
thought with a swelling heart, Majek had been talking about him: talking about
him to the man who was closest to him in the world. If that wasn't suggestive
of success, what was?
It was fortunate he had that thought to
console him because the meal that followed was something of a trial. Dorian not
only had to watch Ara hovering around the General with an expression of wistful
devotion but after the first few minutes all the conversation was in
Circassian. True, Dorian had the seat of honour at the end of the table
opposite Majek, but that was only because Majek wanted to have his son at his
side. Szintarow sat in Sergei's place with Jean beside him and Sergei sat next
to Dorian. That meant Dorian had a full view through the meal of Majek being
attentive to Szintarow and of Szintarow being attentive to what Kinta and Jean
were telling him, all in a language he didn't know.
"I'm sorry about this," Sergei
said to him in French half-way through the main course. "Szincza's Russian
isn't that good and they want to be sure there's no mistake in his
understanding of the details. They're discussing the paper, of course."
"I don't understand. I thought you all
spoke Russian at home."
"It's a bit of an upper-class
affectation to speak it at home. People usually pick it up at school. All
classes used to be taught in it but Szincza wasn't much for book-learning in
his youth."
"So how come he speaks English?"
"He started studying after he took
over- figured he'd need it for trade and diplomacy. For Americans and Japanese
and the European Community, he thinks it more useful than Russian, and of
course he's right." He lowered his voice. "They'll switch to Russian
to talk to Takamatsu. He doesn't speak Circassian."
"But he's lived there for
decades!"
"But he's Russian. He won't learn a
peasant dialect. Or he will; he just won't admit it."
Dorian glanced over at Takamatsu, who was
eating silently, eyes on the table.
If he was
listening in on the conversation, there was no sign of it. He seemed to be in
his own world.
"Well, Doctor," Szintarow said
suddenly, "have you anything to add to this?" His Russian was indeed
almost as heavily accented as his English.
Takamatsu looked up slowly. "No- no, I
don't think so."
"What do you think about this
paper?"
"It will make Jean's reputation
overnight, and Samh' Kinta's as well. They might get the Nobel prize for it.
It's a stunning achievement."
"Don't go mealy-mouthed on me. You've
been plain enough in the past. Do you think I should let them give it?"
Takamatsu looked at him with dislike.
"I think it's every bit as dangerous as you do, naturally. I wish to God
Samh' Kinta had never thought of it. No, of course you shouldn't allow them to
give it, not as it stands. And how are you going to stop them, General? As if I
didn't know."
Szintarow turned to his left. "Jean.
I'm asking you to change your paper. Will you?"
"Yes."
"Jean!" Kinta bellowed in
protest, but Jean merely shook his head.
"I had only one reason for starting
this research. You know that perfectly well. Now my purpose is fulfilled, I
couldn't care less if the world never finds out about the rest of it. I'm
sorry, Kinta."
"I thought you were a scientist!"
"I'm a pragmatist first." His
dark eyes were sad but firm. "If it were my choice alone, I'd change the
paper and I wouldn't make conditions about doing it."
Kinta slewed away from him. "You don't
know-" he started, and then bit his sentence off.
"I do know what it's like, actually.
And I'm still sorry."
"Kinta," Szintarow said.
"Will you change your paper?"
"Not unless-"
"Majek was willing to bargain with
you. I'm not. Yes or no?"
Kinta's face hardened. "No."
The General snapped his fingers. Koczi and
another dark soldier suddenly appeared on either side of Kinta's chair with two
guns trained on him. Kinta looked at them in surprise and then at Szintarow.
Ara came forward, taking a hypodermic needle from its case.
"Szincza, what are you doing?"
Gunmar's voice was high.
"You're going back to Circassia,"
Szintarow told Kinta. "Under sedation, and now. Don't fight-" as
Kinta made a move to rise. "They'll shoot if they have to and I'd rather
they didn't. Gun wounds are tricky at close quarters."
"And what happens then?" Kinta
asked, staring at Szintarow.
"They'll take you to the Ganma
fortress and see you safely to your suite there. And that's where you'll
stay."
"For how long?"
"The rest of your life."
"What!?" Kinta went rigid, and
Dorian heard Sergei inhale sharply. Gunmar cried, "You can't!" and
Takamatsu said fiercely, "You're joking. This is a trick."
"No trick. I can. Takamatsu asked how
I was going to stop you. The answer is, like this. Alive and free, you're a
danger to your country and everyone in it. I'll leave you alive, but freedom
you can't have."
"You can't," Kinta said thickly.
"You can't do that to me-"
"I have no choice. Araszyam-"
"Wait!" Takamatsu jerked to his
feet, staring whitely at Szintarow. His mouth worked soundlessly for a moment.
"You shit," he got out at last, "you cheap misbegotten
abortion-"
Szintarow's hand shot out and grasped his
father's arm even as Majek half-rose from his chair. Dorian saw the killing
fury in his face and swallowed hard, but Szintarow was already saying,
"Let him talk. He never did like facing reality and now he has to."
Majek sat down, terrible eyes still fixed on Takamatsu.
"You planned this," Takamatsu said
through contorted lips. "You were playing all along-"
"I was giving you a practical
demonstration of the alternatives. Yes. Use your head, Doctor. How did you
think it would end?"
"Alright," Takamatsu said.
"Alright." He sat down again, breathing heavily and not taking his
eyes from Szintarow. "Samh' Kinta, I've changed my mind. I'll undergo the
treatment. Will you change your paper?"
"But I didn't want-" Kinta gazed
wildly at him. "I didn't mean- it- it wasn't supposed to be like this."
"It's always been like this,"
Szintarow said, "from the minute you made that condition. You or
Takamatsu- one of you would end with the gun at his head."
"I thought-" Kinta didn't seem to
hear, "I thought you'd change your mind because you love us- because you
wanted to stay with us-" Large tears began to roll down his face.
"I'll never be sure of you now."
"How sure do you need to be, Samhet?
If the treatment works you'll have me with you for- for as long as you
want-"
"You'll be alive, grudging every
breath you take and wishing yourself dead. How can I live, knowing that?"
"I don't wish myself dead, Samhet.
I've no reason to, with you and Samh' Gunmar to live for. Listen. Try to
believe what I'm telling you. I don't want to take this treatment. I think it
unnatural. I think the consequences could be terrible. My objections are those
of a scientist. They're purely rational."
"Purely?" Kinta said. He reached
inside his tunic and slipped a thin chain over his head. On it was a square
cross of some heavy metal that Dorian's eye automatically registered as Kiev
work of the sixteenth century, and valuable. "You gave this to me. If I
asked you to put your hand on it and swear this has nothing to do with my
father, would you?" Takamatsu's eyes flicked away momentarily, and Kinta
burst out, "I knew! I knew it! You love him more than us!"
Takamatsu sighed deeply. "Not more,
Samhet, just differently. I've never loved anyone else the way I did Samh'
Ruza. I lost my heart to him when I was sixteen and I never got it back. You
see a man in a wheelchair, he tells you, 'I broke my neck when I was in high
school,'- it's part of him now, part of what he is. He doesn't think twice
about it any more. I'm the same. A certain kind of love became impossible for
me before I was twenty. But I'm a scientist. Your father is dead. I accept that
I'll never see him again. He's not waiting in some pleasant afterworld for me
when I die. We're animals. When we die, that's the end of us."
"You don't know that," Gunmar
said, surprising them all. "You're stating a belief as if it were a
fact."
Takamatsu blinked. "Yes. True. I
apologize. But in the absence of any empirical evidence, all I can state are my
beliefs. And I believe that Samh' Ruza no longer exists in this world or out of
it."
"Then why does he still make a
difference?" Kinta demanded. "We're offering you life. What is it
that makes you refuse?"
"I guess- I guess I don't want to
enjoy a privilege that was denied to him. That's all."
"All," Kinta said bitterly.
"He's dead and gone and he still matters more to you than us." He
turned his head away.
"Samhet." Takamatsu looked at him
helplessly. At last he reached over and put a hand on Kinta's shoulder.
"That's not true. I love you as I love Samh' Gunmar. Your brilliance, your
success- they've made me happier than I can tell you. I want them to continue.
I want to be there to see you both astonish the world. And I will be,
now."
Kinta turned back at that. He took
Takamatsu's hand and brought it to his cheek like a child seeking comfort.
Takamatsu smiled at him.
"You're what matters to me. That's why
I've agreed to this treatment. If one of us has to be imprisoned, better it be
me."
Kinta winced. "You still think your
life will be a prison," he said unhappily.
"It could turn into one, Samhet, and
you know it. If I age in spite of the hormone and turn into a dribbling senile
creature, what then? Could you make yourself let me go even when I'm no longer
myself?"
"Would you want me to kill you?"
Kinta protested.
"Yes."
"I couldn't. You know I
couldn't."
"I could," Szintarow said,
"and I will, if that's what you're worried about. I'll guarantee it.
Something fast and painless-"
"No-" Kinta glared at him, arm
going around Takamatsu' shoulders.
"Yes. What about it, Doctor? I'll put
it in writing, if you like."
"Can you write?" Takamatsu
wondered, sounding more like his old self.
"I've been taking lessons,"
Szintarow said levelly. "Well?"
"Done. That's my condition, samhet.
You know you owe me one." Kinta frowned in perplexity. "And I can
trust your cousin to carry out my murder, better than anyone else."
"Besides, there's every chance it
won't be necessary," Jean said. "Not that I wanted to say it and
break up that affecting scene back there, but there's no earthly reason why it
shouldn't work exactly the way it does with us."
"I prepare for the worst and hope for
the best, as Lord Gloria says. General, are you intending to keep these apes
hovering over your cousin all day?" Koczi, Ara and the other man melted
away at a nod from Szintarow.
"Kinta," Szintarow said.
"What the hell do you want?"
"A few manners, for a start,"
Majek inserted. "You're under my roof and talking to my son."
"Well, what then?" Kinta said,
less violently.
"I want your word that you'll change
your paper."
"You've got it."
"Before Friday."
"God, what is this? I've already
said-"
"You'll change your paper. Doesn't
help me much if you do it Saturday instead."
Kinta grinned involuntarily. "This
evening. My word. Happy?"
"Yes. Thank you."
Majek beckoned with a finger and Ara began
refilling wine glasses. Miyagui appeared with the dessert course and slowly
dinner returned to a feeling of normality. Dorian found himself charmed by the
dramatic events of the last quarter of an hour. You had to hand it to General
Szintarow. Bold and resolute, he knew how to do things with a flair. He'd
learned a lot from his father
And, clearly, he'd learned a lot from his
uncle as well. He watched as Szintarow turned the conversation to talk of the
safe past, and led first Majek and then the others into reminiscences of people
Dorian had never heard of. You couldn't call it manipulative, exactly, but it
eased the atmosphere without anyone seeming to notice that it was being done.
Even Gunmar began to smile as one of Szintarow's remarks started Kinta and Jean
on a slanging match about the other's expertise, or lack of it, as a fighter in
the last war. Kinta himself soon became ebullient. Clearly it had finally
registered on him that he'd won his point with Takamatsu, and happiness made
him almost witty. An incomprehensible farrago about Jean losing his clothes
somewhere and the demoralizing effect his nude figure had had on his own side
had everyone in hysterics, including Dorian. He could well imagine. Wiping his
eyes, he glanced to his left and saw that Takamatsu wasn't listening to any of
it. He was looking at his plate and his expression was sad.
So it was no surprise when he excused
himself as they all rose to go to the salon and, pleading fatigue, said he was
going to lie down for a while.
"I bet he's tired," Sergei
murmured beside him as Takamatsu left the room. "Szincza put him through
the mill back there."
"Mmh. I'd hate to find myself on the
General's bad side. Did you really put a knife into him?" he asked Jean.
"What for?"
"I thought he was selling us out to
Majek. Things looked a lot different during the war."
"I believe you. And are there really
no hard feelings left among the factions?"
"None that I can tell. Szincza is
Acaille by birth and Aouille by upbringing and everyone knows it. If anyone
symbolizes the union of the stones, he does."
"It's all different now," Sergei
said. "Majek united the country but Szincza's taken us into the outside
world. So much is happening now that people have stopped thinking about
the past- maybe for the first time in our history."
"Even you," Jean said, and kissed
him.
"Even me," Sergei smiled at him.
"But don't think I've forgotten."
Dorian wondered briefly what private
passage that referred to as he found himself seated in the living room with a
cup of coffee. Szintarow was still at Majek's side, and so Dorian had to
content himself with a chair across from the two of them, between Sergei and
Gunmar. The heavy dinner and the wine in the middle of the day- yes, and maybe
the after-effects of the high drama he'd witnessed- had brought on a pleasant
torpor, and he was quite happy to lean back in his chair and watch Majek. Majek
was talking generally but his conversation was aimed at Szintarow. 'He sees
nothing else when his son's around,' Sergei had said. It was true, perhaps, or
true enough. But Dorian could feel Majek aware of him at some level below the conscious
and he deliberately sent his own awareness out to feed it. Majek shifted in his
chair and his eyes glanced briefly over at Dorian. Dorian kept a straight face.
'Mine,' his thoughts purred happily, 'you're mine and you know it.' Well, let
him enjoy his last period of freedom. Generously he pulled his attention from
Majek and let it wander over to Szintarow.
The General had tossed his hair back
over his shoulders and was leaning forward a little, elbows on knees, in an
attitude Dorian usually associated with Jean. Inbred, the Acailles. Seeing him
like this the resemblance to Jean was remarkable. It was only the hair and
perhaps the difference in temperament that made them seem unalike. But the
eyes- and the nose- and the shape of the face- Dorian felt a little strange-
the mouth- the chin- were the same- exactly the same-Szintarow gestured with
his hand out, Jean's gesture exactly- "They're exactly alike- exactly--"
There was no single moment of earth-shattering revelation. One minute he didn't
know and the next minute his mind had effortlessly made the connection. It was
the truth, so obviously, even though so obviously impossible. "Jahn,"
he said aloud, feeling the world slip sideways into unreality. The voices about
him stopped dead. "You're Jahn," he said, and saw Szintarow's face go
still. In the underwater world of nightmare it took forever to drag his eyes
from the man sitting over there on his right to the man sitting just beyond him
on his left, and he seemed to have hours to register all the faces and
expressions in between: Kinta's alarmed and bright-eyed, Gunmar's pale and
apprehensive, Sergei- his face held an emptiness that was obscurely terrifying,
and next to him-- was-- Jean, sane and solid as ever, looking back at him in
mild interest. 'I was wrong,' Dorian thought in enormous relief, even as his
mouth spoke the incredible words: "You're Jahn. You didn't die."
"It certainly felt like it," Jean
remarked. "But of course it didn't take."
The nightmare feel thickened about him.
"You said you were thirty-seven," he said witlessly.
"So I left a few zeroes off,"
Jean said. "So sue me."
The skin crawled on the back of Dorian's
neck. "What are you?"
"Just a man who doesn't grow old and
who's very hard to kill."
"Oh my God." I'm going insane, he
thought. This doesn't- "This doesn't happen. It can't happen."
"It's the chromosome," Gunmar
said eagerly. "It's dormant in most of us. It extends our lives by a few
decades but that's all. But in Jean it's fully active-"
"I wondered why he didn't age,"
Kinta explained, "and I analyzed his chemistry and found the enzyme that
activates the chromosome-" He
stopped, frowning a little at Dorian's expression.
Dorian tried to swallow in a mouth that had
suddenly gone dry. "All of you?" he whispered. "You're all- like
that- now?" His eyes veered crazily back and forth over their faces- the
bright blue eyes, the inhumanly young skin-
"All of us who've had the
treatment," Sergei said gravely, as if he were a stranger. "Of
course."
"Oh my God. Oh my God." Something
atavistic was hammering in panic at his heart. Not one of us- not one of us-
alien- undying- inhuman... He pressed against the back of his chair, staring at
Sergei in horror. Like a vampire- and I slept with him--
"You see?" It was Majek's voice,
calm and dispassionate. "And that's one of their elite, a man of education
and intelligence. Imagine how the common people would react."
"I see," Kinta said. Slow anger
moved in his voice. "You were right all along. Of course." He looked
bitterly at Dorian as at one who'd betrayed him.
There was a slight rustling among the other
Aouilles. Dorian could feel them drawing away from him. Jean got out of his
chair. "Come on," he said. "We might as well start the rewrite.
Looks like it's going to have to be more drastic than we thought." He
sighed and gave Dorian a fleeting glance of disappointment.
"Just make sure they can't ever
conclude- this." Majek nodded at Dorian.
Kinta got up as well. "Can you think
of a way to stop his mouth?"
"Yes," Majek said.
Dorian went cold. So that was to be the way
of it- plain and simple murder in order to keep Circassia's secret. He had no
doubt Majek could do it without sparing a second thought.
"Oh dear, Lord Gloria." Gunmar
looked at him in distress. "I wish you hadn't. I really, really do."
He went with the other two.
Numbly, Dorian watched as Sergei rose in
his turn. Sergei angry had been frightening but it was nothing compared to the
settled emptiness that looked back at him now.
"I won't risk losing him again,"
Sergei said as if in explanation. "I'm sorry, Dorian." He crossed the
room and left.
Szintarow said something to Majek in
Circassian and Majek answered in the same language. It had the tone of a calm
exchange of information. They're talking about how to do it, Dorian thought. He
still couldn't quite believe it but his hand was at his knife anyway. He might
be able to take one or two out and buy enough time to make his escape. It all
depended where they did it, and how many men they called on for the job, and
whether they'd risk gunfire. He hoped obscurely that one of his executioners
wouldn't be Ara.
The General went away, leaving him alone
with Majek. With Majek-- And if he was going to die, there was one last thing
to be done first. No matter what Majek had become now--
Dorian sat up and looked at him directly-
the inhuman king, the silver alien--
He blinked in shock. For a moment he
thought he was looking at his father. An ordinary man, aging and human and--
tired. Pale half-circles showed white beneath his eyes and deep lines bracketed
his bleached mouth. There was none of the strangeness that had misted Jean and
Sergei and the rest, none of that sense of otherness that had rattled him so
badly. Really, he'd acted like an idiot there. What a pity he was to lose his
life for a few seconds' witlessness. But at least...
Majek's blue eyes were fixed on him, not in
speculation or anger but-- A wave of heat rushed from Dorian's groin straight
to his head at sight of that naked desire. He came to his feet as if lifted by
a wave. Majek sat up and reached out his arms. Dorian crossed to him in two
paces, sank down by his side and threw his own arms around his neck. Oh yes, oh
yes, as Majek's mouth came fiercely down on his own, as Majek's tongue invaded
his mouth, as Majek's fingers dug into his arms and back-- Here it was, here it
was at last. Majek was caught as well as he, a prisoner of his need. Obscurely
he knew it was because he, Dorian, was as good as dead in Majek's reckoning,
but that seemed a minor detail. The dam had burst and there was no holding back
the flood for either of him. Joyfully he threw himself into the torrent. The
heat of the hard body pressed against his own, the smell of blond tobacco from
Majek's clothes, the spicy scent of the silvery mane all sent him into a
frenzy. 'Mine now- mine-' He freed his mouth from Majek's in order to taste his
cheek, his ear, his neck- he had to have his mouth on every inch of him, now,
at once, he wanted his hands to know the texture of all Majek's skin-- He
kissed him desperately because a lifetime wouldn't be enough to explore the
whole continent of Majek's body and he had so little time, so little-
He pushed Majek's knees apart with his leg
and knelt between them, pressed up against the fork of Majek's body, the
confined imprisoned throbbing in his trousers seeking the same need in Majek's.
Majek groaned and writhed, back arching.
"Not here- little brother-" he
panted and pulled Dorian to his feet as he rose. Dorian bent and kissed him
again. "We're not- animals-"
"Where then?" Dorian murmured,
tongue licking at his ear.
"My room." Majek nodded to the
door by the window, and they stumbled to it, clumsily because they couldn't
bear to loose each other, and through to the bedroom on the other side. Majek
pushed the door shut with his back and Dorian pressed him to it, moving his
hips slowly over Majek's, need to need. The rigid bulk of Majek's crotch rubbed
against his thigh and his own crotch pressed against Majek's belly. He couldn't
continue like this, hampered by cloth. He had to have flesh on his flesh. He
dropped to his knees, hands scrabbling under Majek's tunic for his belt buckle,
but the intricacies of Circassian tailoring defeated him. He buried his face in
frustration in the folds of black cloth, seeking instead the hard impression of
Majek's cock within, pressing it against his cheek and working at it with his
mouth. Majek's fingers were in his hair, pushing him closer, and Majek's hips
rocked against him a little, and Majek was groaning softly...
"Take it off," Dorian begged,
mouthing at the concealed treasure, "Let me have you... I have to..."
Majek pushed Dorian's head away and began
unhooking fastenings. The overlapping front of the tunic opened up and he
pulled it off. Dorian gazed enraptured at the shocking brown of Majek's nipples
in the ivory whiteness of his broad chest. Majek's hands gripped him by the
shoulders, urging him up. Majek began unfastening the buttons of Dorian's
shirt, frowning intently. He slid the silk off Dorian's arms and ran his hands
across the skin of Dorian's chest, down towards his belly. Dorian shuddered in
desire, eyes closing, but he forced himself to stand still under Majek's
exploring possessive touch. He thought it would kill him not to reach out and
grab but he knew he mustn't- not with this one... Majek's hands were going up
his back and Dorian shook at the touch, making little mewling sounds of want,
and thank God Majek's arms contracted about him at last, pulling him into a
hard embrace. He brought his own arms up to press the beautiful warm flesh. His
hands moulded the sculptured surfaces of Majek's back and shoulders- so
beautiful, so beautiful- and slid down over the hard mounds of his buttocks.
"Bed, little brother," Majek
groaned into his shoulder. They made it across the room somehow. Majek undid
Dorian's belt and got his hands inside the back. Dorian writhed to feel those
strong fingers on his hips and thighs. His cock, released, came bounding up to
press against Majek's body. Majek recoiled a little as if in surprise. He
pushed Dorian backwards onto the bed and stripped the rest of his clothes from
him. Then he simply stopped. He stood staring at Dorian's naked body, broad
chest heaving as if he'd just run a marathon. Dorian gazed back at him,
waiting- and waiting-
"Please," he said, unable to wait
longer. "Please."
Majek sank slowly onto the bed beside him
and put a tentative hand on his body. The odd blue eyes were fixed and...
puzzled-- like Kinta's, almost. One would almost think he had never- Oh. Well,
he never had, had he? In his way, he was as much a virgin as Araszyam. Love
like this was all new country to him.
"I'm yours," Dorian said, to make
him understand. "Yours. All of me. All you have to do is reach out your
hand. I want you- I need you, like the earth needs the sun. The world is night
when I'm away from you. Love me, Majek, or I will die." 'Fuck me, Majek,
or I'll go crazy.' He reached out and Majek caught him by the wrist. He smiled,
a smile that Dorian was unable to read, but it contained enough sheer lust to
be going on with. "Please," he repeated, urgently.
Majek loosed him and swiftly undid his own
trousers. Dorian slipped onto the floor and knelt to pull off the short boots
and the socks underneath. Lovely feet, long and higharched with blunt broad
toes. He bent and kissed them, enjoying the submissiveness of his pose even
while his lips savoured the texture of the thin pale skin. Majek drew his
breath in sharply. Dorian straightened, hooked his fingers around Majek's
waistband and drew his trousers from him, reverently as if disrobing a king. He
didn't think Majek would care to be stripped like a rentboy. And here at last
was what he'd been waiting for, thick and red, rising half-erect from a nest of
hair the colour of cobwebs. He took it between his hands and brought his mouth
to it. Gently, gently, his lips and tongue curved to its shape and he tasted
all its flavours: sharp and vinegary at the end, heavy and musky under the
foreskin, rank and animal where it met the testicles. Dorian played with his
treasures like a man obsessed, going from the hard shaft above to the soft bulk
below, letting his mouth slide from the smooth surface of the one to the rough
scratchiness of the other. His tongue followed the pulsing black course of the
big vein and glided over the shallow bifurcation under the head. Sweet endless
satisfaction... Majek drew deep groans from his chest and his fingers dug
desperately into Dorian's hair; but no liquid leaked from the end of his organ,
no untoward climax shortened Dorian's pleasure. He went on until his mouth
ached and he had to rest, face turned to Majek's strong upper thigh.
Majek took hold of his shoulders and hauled
him onto the bed, belly down, and laid his hot heavy body atop him. Dorian
arched his back under the weight, opening himself as much as he could in the
cramped position. It was going to hurt, whatever he did, but he was in no
position to be suggesting techniques. But Majek made no move to enter him. His
cock pushed between Dorian's legs and his mouth was pressed to Dorian's back
and he was perfectly still.
"Majek," Dorian murmured, turning
his head a little.
"Little brother," Majek said,
mouth to his skin. "You-"
"Yes?" Dorian prompted after a
moment.
Majek rolled off him. Dorian turned over so
they lay face to face. The unhuman eyes were only inches away and Dorian gazed
willessly into them. At last Majek said, "This is different from the other
times. I knew where I was with them. But with you-" He gave a small
painful smile. "I don't know how it should be done. Suppose you tell
me."
"Anyway you like," Dorian said.
"You tell me. On my knees or on my face or on my back- whatever's best for
you. And we can use cream if you have it- it's easier for both of us."
"Cream?"
"Like hand cream. To- you know- make
it slippery. So it doesn't hurt."
"It's supposed to hurt."
"Yes but-- it hurts you too."
"That's what I mean." They looked
at each other in mutual perplexity, then Majek gave a little snort of laughter.
"Oh God, what am I doing? This
is-"
Dorian reached over and kissed him on the
mouth and Majek's arms came up automatically to pull him closer. They lay
pressed together, hot as a furnace, mouth to mouth and skin to skin. Majek's
body knew what it wanted and Dorian had no intention of letting his head have
any Circassian second thoughts. His hand stole down and enveloped Majek's
hardness. Majek hissed in his teeth.
"Like this," Dorian whispered
between kisses, "This is how it's done. Did no-one ever do this to you
before?"
Majek gave a laugh that was near to tears.
"Those honest farmboys and leathery hillsmen--" He broke off with a
gasp as Dorian's fingers moved to the most sensitive part. "Oh God- little
brother- stop--" His head rolled back and forth and his eyes were wild.
"The cream," Dorian murmured,
slackening a little. "Where is it?"
"Over there," Majek waved vaguely
in the direction of the dresser. Dorian slipped away and by luck more than
instinct found the jar. It had no label and smelled a little rancidly of
lanolin. Dorian laid it thickly on Majek, squeezing at him skilfully so that he
arched and groaned and reached for Dorian with greedy hands. Dorian slid
smiling onto the bed and let himself be turned to his face again, raising his
hips to make it easier for them both. He heard Majek's deep intaken breath, and
then a hardness breached the entrance to his body and was pushing in, huge and
relentless. Dorian's eyes bulged and his mouth opened wide. Majek wasn't that
big- he wasn't- but it felt as though he had been impaled through his bowels
and into his heart. He was filled up- he was split apart- his back arched
desperately as he tried to open more- more- to take it all in- and there was no
more room in him, none at all, he was filled with Majek's hugeness so that the
top of his skull felt as if it would explode to free the pressure. Too much, it
was too much- he howled, a long thin highpitched keening, and Majek's face
pressed into his neck, Majek was giving the terrifying deep groans of a man who
has been stabbed in a dozen places, oh god, what was this, what was
happening...
"Are you mine?" He could barely
understand Majek's thickened speech but he knew instinctively what he was
asking. "Yes," he panted, clutching the coverlet in both hands.
"Yes, I am, yes-"
"Say it," Majek said between his
teeth.
"I'm yours," Dorian gasped on an
indrawn breath.
"Body and soul-" Majek caught his
breath as if in pain, but went on desperately, like a man giving a deathbed
message, "bowels and blood-"
"Body and soul," Dorian sobbed
through the red burning, "bowels and blood-"
"From this day forth."
"From this day forth." A huge
shudder went through him, but when it subsided so had the terrible pressure
within. He glowed with a wonderful warmth like a furnace's. He could even smell
his own scent, the odour of roses that was so much a part of him he never
noticed it any more. Majek was inside him, a lovely lovely sensation, an
easement to the heart as well as the body. Yes- oh yes- this was what he'd
wanted- this was what he'd needed- all the others had been shadows on the wall
and here was the true flame of the sun. And though he'd felt as if he'd already
orgasmed, he was still hard and waiting for his consummation. Yes, now they
could start in earnest.
Majek withdrew from him and Dorian, taking
the hint, rolled on to his back, bending his legs and stretching his arms up to
his lover. Majek's eyes took him in, those strange crystalline eyes that held
and refracted the light so oddly- they moved slowly up and down him, lingering
over the sight of his rampant sex. Dorian's heart sang in delight as Majek
surveyed the landscape of Dorian's body and all the pleasures that waited for
him in it. "My king," he said, smiling a little at the fantasy but
mostly at Majek, "my king of Faery-" His hand stroked through the
silvery mane. "Will it please your Majesty to enter your kingdom?"
"A second time...?"
"Who's talking of seconds? We've
barely begun."
Majek drew a long, deep breath, and when he
let it out the flame of lust burned high in his eyes. He threw himself on
Dorian again, all hot weight and wet mouth, crushing Dorian's body and rigid
sex and parted lips. Dorian grasped him like a drowning man. His arms embraced
the summer warmth of his skin and the hard muscle beneath it. His fingers
sought sensitive spots and tiptoed over shivering flesh. It took no great skill
to manoeuvre his hips to where Majek's hardness waited for him, and Majek drove
into him again. Oh lovely, lovely- Dorian arched in ecstasy as Majek rode him.
He twined his legs about that strong torso and wriggled so that his own erect
sex was brushed by Majek's hard abdomen as it followed the in and out movement
of Majek's hips. Teasing, tantalizing, too delicate a sensation to compete with
the steady filling and emptying that was happening behind it. Dorian caught
hold of himself and pumped in unison, but Majek pushed his hand away and began
working at him with his own hand. The feel of those hard calloused fingers
undid him. His mouth opened in a silent scream and his vision went shimmery.
Majek's sex pistoned into him, huge and burning, and Majek's hand skinned his
aching cock. He heard himself crying out, short cries mixing with Majek's deep
raspy breaths, and then orgasm exploded in his head and his belly and his loins
and took him from himself for a moment.
Slowly he came back to find Majek lying
upon him like a blanket, his face buried in Dorian's hair and his exhausted
panting sounding in Dorian's ear. Dorian raised a leaden hand to stroke Majek's
own hair, but it was too much effort and he let it drop heavily back down
across Majek's neck. So warm, so very warm, so safe... Dorian's mouth curved in
a small smile. 'Safe as houses,' and his eyes closed of themselves. 'Home' he
thought in muzzy contentment and sank into sleep.
He came to the surface, smelling Majek's
tobacco, and opened dreamy eyes. Majek had got him under the covers somehow and
was lying beside him, propped against the pillows. Dorian turned on his side,
stretching his legs deliciously in the warm depths of the bed.
"Majek," he said and reached an arm around Majek's waist.
"Dorian." Majek looked down at
him through the blue swirls of smoke. He turned towards the table and stubbed
out his cigarette. Dorian cuddled up to his side and Majek slid down beside
him, putting an arm about his shoulders.
"Little brother," he said, as if
to himself, "what am I to do with you?"
"You were going to kill me,
remember?" He was surprised how little it seemed to matter. It wasn't that
he disbelieved it, exactly, but just at that moment he was too happy to care
"I was?" Majek sounded
puzzled.
"Wasn't that what you were saying to
Szintarow before he left?"
"No. Not at all. I told him I would
secure you to my service and take you back to Circassia with me."
Dorian's heart leapt in delight. "Oh yes!
I'd love to go back to Circassia with you! The mountains- so rugged and
romantic- just like you-" he nuzzled Majek fondly, "and the
tribesmen, so fierce and barbaric-"
"Dorian-" Majek began, but Dorian
was carried away by the vision of a future at Majek's side.
"I could wear native dress, like
yours- I love those high collars- and ride a horse-"
"We don't have hor-"
"-and we could get married like Jea-
uh, Jahn and Sergei are- people wouldn't mind, would they? and we could be
together always. Oh, and here's a thought- if we were married Gunmar would be
my son- I could make him heir to the Red Gloria title since I don't have a son
of my own to pass it on to-"
Majek put a hand over his mouth.
"Dorian. No."
Dorian raised inquiring eyebrows at him.
"No," Majek repeated heavily, and
freed Dorian's mouth.
"But why ever not? I love you. We're
good together." He felt Majek flinch a little. "Well, we are. Have
you ever slept with anyone as good as me? I know you haven't-" He stopped
as Majek's fist clenched.
"Dorian," Majek said through his
teeth. "No. No. And no."
Dorian sat up and leaned close to him.
"Majek- why, why, and why not?"
"Because. You understand nothing. If I
brought you back with me-- The people would think me mad. You'd be a scandal
throughout the country." He gave a little grunt of laughter.
"Circassia isn't ready for you. I don't think it will ever be ready for
you."
"But you can't just leave me. You know
that. You want me too badly."
Majek's breath hissed in his teeth.
"If I brought you back to Circassia, I'd kill you inside a week. You
insult me unforgivably and don't even know you've done it. There's only so much
of that I can take. And it still might not be soon enough."
"I don't understand. Soon enough for
what?"
"No, you don't understand. You have no
kin to be shamed by your behaviour. Your father- oh, yes. You said he was the
same as you. Even if he were alive it would mean nothing to him."
"Well, who in your family is going to
mind what we do? Sergei? Halim? Gunmar? Come on, Majek. They're all the same as
me."
"No they're not. They at least know
the meaning of discretion. And Szincza--" He looked away.
"Majek," Dorian said gently,
aware for once that he was risking his neck. "The General's- not averse-
to good-looking men. You know that."
Majek's shoulders rose automatically.
Dorian could see him making the effort to to remain calm.
"I know," Majek said after a long
moment. "I know. But he doesn't flaunt it in people's faces. And if I
brought back a fanc-" He checked himself.
"Fancy-boy will do," Dorian said.
"At my age it's a compliment."
Majek turned to look at him. "If I
came home with a- a man that I slept with, a man who looked and acted like you-
people would say the old General was in his dotage. They'd say I'd become
crack-witted, rutting with anything like an old goat. My kinsmen would share
the disgrace. We're peasants, as you say, and you know what peasant humour is
like."
"And you care?" Dorian
demanded. "It bothers you what a bunch of farmers are saying?
Majek!"
"It would affect Szincza's authority.
That's all that matters. I won't have it."
Dorian stared at him, chilled by the note
of finality in Majek's voice.
"You love him more than me," he
said in desolation.
"Yes. Of course." Majek sounded
surprised. "How not? Oh- Dorian-" he sighed, exasperated, at the
sight of Dorian's welling eyes. "He's my son," he said.
Dorian shook his head and buried his face
in Majek's shoulder. "He's your son. He can't do this with you. Who will
you have to sleep beside you when you're back home? Who will make you happy
like I do? Majek, you need me." He reached up and kissed the side of
Majek's neck, working his way up to the earlobe. Majek's breath grew deeper,
and Dorian, encouraged, moved to his mouth. Majek grabbed his head with both
hands and held him away.
"Stop," he said in a voice that
shook. "Stop now."
"But you want me-"
"Stop saying that!" Majek
bellowed at him. They stared at each other a long moment. "Yes,"
Majek said, angrily. "I want you. I want you and I feel I'll never have
enough of you. Maybe I am in my dotage, wanting to be with a man after
all these years. Age turns all men into fools. If I had you with me I'd forget
myself- forget all decency and self-respect. I'd become a scandal and a shame
to my son, and I'll die before that happens."
"Or I will," Dorian said.
"Or you will."
"So you are going to kill
me," Dorian said bitterly, throwing himself flat on his back. "To
protect Circassia's secret- and just incidentally, your own self-esteem."
"Little brother- little brother, why
do you always speak daggers to me? And you said you would never hurt me--"
"At least you never made that promise
to me. And a good thing, too."
"You despise me so much."
"I? It's you who despises me,"
Dorian said angrily.
"No, no. I don't. You're- so
different. I don't know what to make of you. All I know is that you threaten me
and mine."
"Like Kinta. But I can't even look
forward to being your life's prisoner. Well, fine. Here's my throat." He
laid his head back. "Yours for the throttling. Go ahead."
Majek put both his hands round Dorian's
neck. 'He's really going to do it this time,' Dorian thought in remote
surprise. Majek's face was grave and intent and seemingly very far away. Dorian
went still.
But instead of the expected pressure he
felt Majek's warm lips on his skin and the spell snapped instantly. He heard
himself giving a muffled yelp of surprise and lust. His hands scrabbled
desperately at Majek's shoulders and he arched in ecstasy at the warm wet
caresses of Majek's mouth. "Oh God," he panted, "Oh God-
Majek-" Majek moved down his body, to the broad planes of his chest- he
was going to- he was going to- oh, he did- as blunt teeth found Dorian's
nipple and worried at it. Dorian's mouth opened wide at the sensation it hurt
it felt wonderful it hurt-- he made little 'ung' noises as Majek tortured his
left nipple, and then his right, and he drubbed his feet on the bed and
wriggled his hips imprisoned under Majek's heavy body 'No- stop- no- don't-
don't stop- oh- no- oh--"
Majek raised his head.
"You're mine," he said, like a
man stating a fact he doesn't quite believe.
"I'm yours," Dorian panted.
"All. Yours. All-"
"You're mine--"
"God, yes." He was running with
sweat. "All of me. All yours."
Majek shook his head in wonder. Then he
moved up and his mouth fastened on Dorian's again. Dorian wrapped arms and legs
about him and kissed him back. Majek's great hand moved down to grasp Dorian's
cock. Dorian put his own hand over it and guided his fingers to the right spot.
"Here," he murmured, "here's where it feels best." He
reached for Majek and showed him on his own body. Majek picked up the rhythm
easily, mimicking Dorian's motions.